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it was snowing heavily the other night. of course in the midst of enjoying my freshly loaded stupid show to have a laugh before i sleep, my mates called and asked me out for a so called "surprise". so, looking like a crap i walked out of my block and i saw, a snowman with boobs stood there looking at me, with few of them looking at me with snowballs on their hands! SNOWFIGHT PEOPLE!!! first time in my life! hahaha. i was playing with snow and all....thick thick snow.... looking ugly and stupid, we then proceeded to eat! as usual..

anyway, i woke up the next morning looking out my window, how a very beautiful but i-hate-it scene..i just cant help but to snap down the look of it...

apparently it was still snowing the whole day...inches thick snow made me feel so lazy to do anything. no buses. no work. offices are closed...blahhh. and sorry lah mommy i didnt go out and take those pictures of me playing with snows and wearing thick thick looking very good, because it was just too freezing cold!!! cannot even tahan even walk out can? @$@#%@% even now i am typing in freezing fingers because wtf my room is in the corner room so my windows are right beside where my hands are positioned, therefore my fingers are frozen. FML.

i counted, after coming back from London, i have 7 days in between to the day i am flying to Dublin.. which is tomorrow! Ireland here i come! hahaha

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fully utilized this 7 days, i had finished watching all the episodes of the stupid show i always watch. i realized that i have another crazy 6 empty and bored days in my room! nothing to watch and FB everyday can die! so i dont know why and dont know how i started watching this stupid love taiwanese drama. it was aired on tv at 2003.

i cannot admit that it still touched my feelings a little bit but i guess i am already a different person to watch the same show compared to the one that watched this show 7 years ago.

i remember, i was watching this show in such a little girl's stupid dellusioned heart. so touched. watching chasing the episodes every single day. so shy when there is kissing scenes. so touched even felt like crying when the girl was sick and going to die. (WTF who cares lah nowaday this kind of you die i die everybody in the show die story!)

and now, i realised i watched it in the very different perspective. for example, i scolded so hard at the kissing scenes, BECAUSE IT WAS SO STUPID! NO LOVE, NO PASSION! WTF. sex scenes also like being forced like that. for another example, i used to think the guy in the show was ugly, or well, i vaguely remember his face. but now, I CAN TELL HE IS VERY HANSEM NEH! omg i want to faint already. hahaha!! owh another one, HIS MANDARIN like fucks! hahahaha i laughed so hard, sounds like Louis Koo. HAHAHHA!!! and then i non stop complaining the girl's outfit in the show. OMG!! WHO WAS THE STYLIST LAH! like her outfits were picked by blind people! hahaha cannot tahan FHL.

anyhow, that still wasnt what i was intended to write about the show but i just cant help it.

i read an old friend's blog today. just so happened, i thought of this name. why are you still so sad? new year new person my friend. i wish you love.

i am pretty sure much of the people think that year 2009 past really fast aint it? i do think so. i felt like it was just yesterday i was panicking about my subjects failed and resit all the papers. it was just like yesterday i got all prepared and then people sent me off in the airport. it was like yesterday, when all the dramas and hoo haah happened. and it has all become faded memories. without even a thought of thinking back, i am moving forward with a very very bright and lightened heart to see my future. i will never knew what is coming to me, afraid, but excited. i seem to know what i want to do, yet, i am looking forward to things that will pop out in my life unexpectedly. just like how they always be.

i pray and thanked each day i woke up. thankful that i am still here and all these i am having are for real. (haha seriously at times i still thought that i was dreaming. wtf) i couldnt complain for i know, what i have are not all neccessary. i am just too lucky and blessed.

you, if you think i am refering to you, never had i regretted that etch. stand up and be a man. a man who is not so emotional driven. even i see shining stars in cloudy nights, im sure you will see silver lining in rainy days.

holidays are ending soon, people, Happy Holidays, Happy New Year....

loves,
Cindy