C I N DY

summer love(s)?

2011-07-15T00:34:00.002+08:00

the ratio of running into an ex boyfriend whom u have been dating for several months in a place where u both are still at the same now, is relatively high. especially in Oxford.

my boyfriend broke up with me just about 3 weeks ago, and i havent been out of my apartment ever since apart from going to work.

i have a few little love affairs over these few years ever since i knew what dating another human being seriously was all about. and then i met this wonderfully lovely man who was willing to do anything for me. to be honest, a girl like me with not many external advantages and limited internal beauty, i thought i hit the jackpot and god finally heard my prayers after years of praying. he gave me the perfect candidate whom i think i can settle down with. and then here comes the satan sent me this gorgeous looking russian boy, who was able to give me anything from passionate nights to amazing jokes everyday. my year became twirlwind. who would have thought this would happened to my amazingly dull life?

these all happened since last summer. and continuingly stretched to this summer. Summer time. all the wonderful affairs, beautiful holidays happened then. what about mine? i wondered. pondered accross the passing cars through my apartment, i thought, what could have been better anymore? could us girls have anything more than boyfriends and getting married then settling down to talk about anymore? i began to search for this abitious girl that used to stay inside of me. she came to search for a life with a good academic qualification and to become the powerful woman in the job market, with amazing dancing skills of course. where was she now? have i lost myself in the beautifully glazed love affairs?

everybody gone through a painful break-up. i had a few. as when i was sitting and lying at home about crying for life, this girl inside of me came gave me a huge blow in my face. this isnt my first time and i have to admit i handle this time quite very gracefully. at least there isnt any tears drama and mid night callings to ex boyfriends.

there isnt a certain time length or a certain ways to get over a break up. she will take however long she needs to get over him who broke her heart. but no matter what, she cant go through without just that little faith in herself, and her family.

and instead of hating summer everytime it comes, i am looking forward to go to greece and enjoy the supposingly summer means. summer love. a girl in her early twenties should be experiencing lifes and learning lessons in all possible ways she could be learning. Greecewould be my first stop and first stone to heal this broken wound. and then i'll get my feet up, in my dancing heels of course.

i officially dont hate summer anymore. summers aremeant for summer love affairs. what about some greecian love im about to experience? another heart break another grown up woman in town. circle of life. no one to be blame.

blogesphere

2011-07-15T00:24:00.002+08:00

i personally have been thinking about this particular issue lately. blogs. i clicked on my long forgotten blog account and discovered that the rest of the world (blog world) is happening the same thing. everyone, literally all my blog friends/friends who blog, hardly ever blog anymore. the abandoned posts and lack of updates. everyone seem different nowadays.

people around me arepeople at about the same age range as i do. we all are going through the similar phases in life at the moment. most of us. moving away. travelling away. going away. moving on. living life. actually having a life instead of sitting in front of the computer blogging about what hae they been feeling lately. and then for an instance i thought, everybody is growing up.

this gave an instant blow in my head. as people grow, they tend to not publish their feelings on the public wall for everybody to see it. in fact, whoever cares?

under the warm sun in oxfordshire, i overlooked cowley road, one of the busiest street in oxford, from my apartment. all these things in front of my eyes, recalling all that had happened ever since i came here. and then i read through several ofmy previous blog entries. surprisingly enough i read through a happy girl with no time to do anything to update the world about her lives. that was me then. too busy and too caught up with social activities, new people, new things to do, new parties, new works, new head goals.

and then i wondered, where has she been?

it was 18th November 2010, therefore i turned 22.

2010-12-04T20:41:00.006+08:00

i have to admit to the fact that i am a very lucky girl. i don't need my wallet to be fat to be rich. i am rich in life, as a person, as an ordinary girl from just a tiny part of the world.

at exactly a year and a half ago i came to England with just tiny hopes and dreams of the chance i got to leave my country to pursue something i never thought i would have been, now. i came to England.

very fortunately, i have to be very thankful, though not every thing goes my way but everything was into place just as if it was planned. i now understand trully, everything happens for a reason.. (eg, i got dumped, and..erm...basically thats the only sad thing that has happened to me for the past years..) anyway my point is, for that everything that wrenched your heart at that moment, there must be a reason for that. and u'll figure it out after awhile.

i am blessed with lovely family and a dog, amazing friends, and now, great bosses at work all the way in UK. how else would i ask for more? FUCK love and relationships i seriously have no extra effort and time for that.

so on the 18th of November 2010, one of the greatest events happened in my life. not because it was my birthday, but because its my birthday lovely people made my day so beautiful.

Daddy, Mommy, ChenGy and YeawYeaw called and messaged me in various ways to wish me Happy Birthday. never in my past 21 years i felt that warmth all the way from the deepest core of my heart. i almost cry. that was the best gifts for my birthday. thank you, my family.

Amy and Gary (my boss in the UK) lovingly arranged a birthday dinner for me to celebrate. i dont care the reasons behind this dinner, all i know is they were sincere for making my special day really extraordinary.

i'm happy i bring joy to work, and i was honoured as Awesome no.1 on this very special night!

(well usually i was called awesome no.2 because Gary took the no.1 spot away! hahaha)

thanks to lovely Amy (my boss lady) who made all these happened.

Cindy. EChai. YiLing.

seriously, i want peace among girls. haha

SzeChuan Mouth Watering Chicken. Amy special made for me. one of my favourite dishes of all time.

on a very foggy morning, Mike decided to free his day for me.

girlie-shopping time with me! - he said..

aww poor Mikey shopping with me in Woman's departments all day! lol

thanks to Steven, what a sweet lad who bought me Theatre tickets to Dirty Dancing..

and this lovely iPod with my name carved. thank you.

thank you lovelies for all these....

and Mr Keong, who made the feast came to life. thank you for your effort eventhough u've hurt your hands at work days ago.

i am now a year older, (dare not say say better, but..) a year wiser..and a year closer towards where i want to be..

i am awesome no.1 not because i am just awesome. its because i am the no.1 fortunate person. i am no.1 happy person. i am contented.

thank you all.

loves.

better updates for daddymommy.

2010-11-13T18:49:00.009+08:00

due to the pathetic updates for previous post, i decided to finally make a proper update about my 'life' in England now.

i startoff by showing you my bedroom.

thats my bed. A DOUBLE BED. white ivory sheet with leopard print trimmed. very sexy. haha

thats my work station. haha i know its abit messy at the shelfs area but oh well, i have too much things.

the tiny lounge in my flat. love these couch. i decided to take this place partly because of the lounge too.

yeap! thats how my flat looks like from the outside. right above the bar/cafe. first floor. right in front of the busiest street in Oxford as well.

and to be honest, i am a chinese girl, HWAREN, so, i went to ChinaTown the other day and i bought Chinese buns!

POLO BUN! on polo pau..... i thought i'd never had them anymore. these, are authentic Hong Kong style!

seriously, what is better than perfect buns and coffee from home in the morning?

so, thats where i'm attending all my lectures and seminars now. in Wheatley, Oxford.

thats the waiting lounge for postgrads to hang around before lectures and classes. pretty posh.

so yeap, thats pretty much most of the places that i'm going to spend time in for a long time.

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so there's one cold November night when we all Malaysians gathered together for steamboat!
really really yummy! spot the Char Siu on the far right in this photo!

what else are u expecting from a bunch of girls gathering up together? PHOTOS TAKING! we waste no time for that! lol

digging in! rice cooker as the pot. very intelligent.

as i thought its MinYuen's birthday celebration, little did i know Stephen bought cake for me too! my birthday is a few days after Min's.

so we blew and made wishes to the cake together. (AGAIN!) we did that last year as well! Min came to Oxford for birthday celebrations las year too!

yeap, and then we drink and got drunk a little bit and sleep. a wonderful Malaysian night we all had.

ps:// i had a perfect birthday gift this year. that i'll let u know in the next post.

the end.

quick updates!

2010-11-02T01:40:00.009+08:00

dear daddy, mommy and anyone who cares,

i'm so truly sorry about abandoning this little corner for a reeeeally long time! basically throughout the entire summer and abit of fall. so here i am updating you all a little tiny bit about hows life here back in Oxford. its going to be brief and pictures dominating.

oh yes. first sad tragic news. i'm no longer dancing for the Oxford Team anymore.
reasons?
1. CAN'T MAKE IT
2. EXPENSIVE
3. NOT PUTTING CEDRIC TO DANCE WITH ME (hell no dancing with somebody else)

so, i'm not dancing for the team this year and i reckon forever. anyway it was a good and glorious year for me the time i was in the team. carried home some trophies and thats enough. i think i'm gonna saveall the money i was supposed to spend on dancing, ON TRAVELLING and abit of partying. hahaha.

so i've been back here in Oxford for about 5 weeks going into 6 now. all my life and days are besically about, lectures, assignments, bar works and parties. parties as in IN THE HOUSE and sometimes in the club.

yea, so i had a great reunion with these people who stays about 7 minutes away from my flat. that makes Chai and i a turf to go to whenever we are up for some craps and parties.

pissed and wasted Leo and happy Mike. haha thats Waka at the most right in this photo. they are all awesome people.

the ultimate evil, dickhead, prick, chau chee bai- Alex. a knobhead he is. but he likes my boots. haha

anyway, yea so we partied. quite often.
thats Ethan and Leo. very nice people. VERY VERY NICE to be honest. just that they are all mentalists.

yea so we went to Lava again on one of the Mondays (its always Lava on Monday!) for little bit of partying.

little did we knew it was a foam party. yes. FOAM. bubbly foams. luckily i wasnt in my favourite dress.

look at this sucka. she was so high and happy. psychopath!

owh well the photos turned out good so its fine. lol

no i didnt like it that much because i dropped the bag and had to look for it IN the foam! and i was freezing!

ah! and a pleasant reunion with Roxanne and the rest from Manchester. haha yes Lava (again!)

not an all-party photos post. this is when we had our breakfast in G&Ds. my favourite yam cha place. its basically 1 minute away from where i live now. super love it.

alright. lets just sum this post up.

Halloween party.

the soldier and the mad scientist.

the.....i dont know what was she. a cartoon maid with cat ears. but she looked gorgeous anyway.

4 play event in Bridge. the club with most asians and chinese.

i think thats all for the updates and pictures! i will try my best again to update post about my flat and my room!

Cindy xx

can lightning strike the same place twice?

2010-07-03T19:38:00.003+08:00

there is a myth that says lightnings don't strike at the same place twice. i don't know how true the hypothesis is but i think there should be related to things happened around us aint it?

sometimes we overestimate ourselves. we thought time could make things better and we thought we were all good since its been so long since it last happened. its like many of us who has this particular shirt that we like alot.

some of us already have a whole closet full of shirts. all sorts of colours, designs, brands. expensive, cheap, ordinary, extraordinary. whatever. we have it filled in our closet, full! but then, we somehow dont wear most of them most of the time. we ought to have this particular one piece of shirt and we always wear it.

i have one. a top that i love a lot. and i wear it out alot too. anywhere. everywhere. and about a year ago, i was about to go to UK to study. i wont be home for a year, i thought. i couldnt bring my entire closet to oxford with me. wanted to start afresh so eagerly, i left most of my favourite shirts at home. thinking, i could buy alot of new ones when i go over. soon enough this favourite shirt of mine will be old, in no time i would forget about it anyway. thus i left it back home. stucked it in a corner in my closet which i think i ought to forget.

and then i went to uk as you all know. i had great life did i not? i had a great great life there! forgot about the shirt really. i even forgot that i used to love to wear it. and when i thought time past really quickly and i am done with my degree looking forward to come home for holiday, i received a 'package' with the old shirt in it, sent to me, specifically. it was for me. i miss that shirt the moment i wore it on. i felt like i never left. i felt like i have it all these while. i never forgot about it. i was just overestimating myself thinking i could buy alot of new ones. somehow the old ones fits in so snuggly. how people hate wearing old shirts. i dont like it so much either. but i love my shirt.

oh its been 5 years. i ought to chuck it in the bin. people somehow has this weird habit of finding out old shirt fits comfortably rather than new ones. and when you think the you fit in the old shirt so comfortably, the shirt doesnt fit in you anymore. perhaps you grew fatter and you should buy new shirt. or maybe, the shirt has now became someone else's.

its like the theory of lightning strike the same place twice. you never thought it'd happen, you never expected it to strike at the same place twice. and after years since it last striked, here it comes again. but this time, there isnt as many injuries as it was. soits good.

hard work pays off!

2010-05-18T08:12:00.001+08:00

ok i know, yet another dancing post. this is to update daddymommy.

owh well final exams and major varsity match fall on the same week. so i'll have to master the skill of time management to its maximum.

had myself cooked this sweet soup mommy taught me how to make. i have to admit i am not too bad of a cook either. it tasted almost 99% like mom's. i missed home for that while.

all the way from home.

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so i was working hard for the exams and for the varsity match for the last couple of months. days gone by like ur flipping through calenders pages. so quick. Varsity match has finally arrived.

one of the most important dance competition for Oxford since blackpool.

after the major fall from Blackpool, Cedric and I figured out we need to do more practise and trainings. and so we did. so much hard work, late night dancings, early morning trainings, just for this day...

yeah yeah we started off by ballroom standard. u know, the Waltz and Quickstep thing. which i dont really fancy but still i tried. i made it to the semi finals. hahahah. quite upset.

the complete out-of-time Waltz and totally out of expected Quicksteps.

ah! we cant wait for the Ballroom part to be over and so we changed to out latin outfit.

hahaha! i was so proud of him because i made him buy that revealing top. not that revealing afterall. lol.

our first dance, Cha Cha Cha.

and when we thought the 1.57 minutes were done playing, the MC went straight on playing musics for Jive! wth! back-to-back! i never thought we could do that! seriously, we almost pass out.

Jive it is. see!!! i lifted up my knees! good job Cindy.

oh yeah! we were called to the finals for Cha Cha Cha after so long!

and Jive too! kind of, our trademark dance.

and made it to 3rd in Cha Cha Cha.

and...

2nd in Jive.

unexpected! we never thought we could do this! amazing amazing day!

and yays! our hard work pays off! after all the morning trainings in Green's. wtf knn the college so far from my hall. and it was all worth it!

and now, daddymommy, dnt you worry. i amm not ALL into dance. i do know what i'm doing. all into final revisions for the final paper.

wish me luck

x

activities i did under the sun

2010-05-06T03:30:00.006+08:00

oh yes. summer 2010 is coming. its still spring time people. but the sun are constantly up lately. we all know the sun brings people out.. so i did some outings with Jeannie Chong earlier last week.

oh ya we went shopping abit after lunch. just a little bit. i didnt buy anything.

we thought we could pull of Kanye West look in those shutter shades. attempt 1- failed!

oh wells, i dont fancy ice-cream when i was in Malaysia though it is crazy hot and heaty there. BUT, G&D's ice-creams are dreamy! i managed to convince Jeannie and we had our ice cream date there..

i always love their fruity sorbet.
*yeaw yeaw! u'll love it! trust me!*

hello! daddy, this is Jeannie lah! dont keep on confuse about which one is which one among my friends ok? slowly i'll do a post introducing you my friends that worth u knowing later..

oh and thats me last week! OKOK i know! sorry i am darker because i used the dark coloured foundation ElaineTan gave me! i am fatter because i ate alot! I am make up-less because i was lazy lah! and my hair is too long i knowww, because i want to keep it for competition next next week! *exciting

and....the end.

HAHAHA! no i mean the end for the day.

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u know once again, the sun brings people out. it means outdoor activity.

i talked to Brandon the other day and he invited me over for a family barbeque thing! so.....i travelled to London for that thing i always hate to do - BARBEQUE. i know how hot it was to barbeque in Malaysia right? ITS SO CRAZY HOT and HEATY and SWEATY...and...and it reminds me of my baby BeeBee cutie doggie when we barbequed with her around years back in Alor Setar. how sadd...i miss BeeBee~~~

alright,

so here's my favourite part of Brandon's house- the kitchen.

thats Conrad, Esther and Doreen preparing something something for the barbeque later. apparently i was early.

how can u not excited when you this amount of foods? and they are all fusion chinese style bbq ok?

the Satay sauce, salads, fruits and various of sauces.

and we cant wait no more so we chucked all the foods on the bbq pit.

and while waiting.....

oh well i went to the living room to see the kids played Wii but thats not the point...

i ate those banana cakes Doreen baked! they were lovely!

so excellence!

and then Aunty Jacky came! she brought over something I LOVE MOST!

Chiffon cake/sponge cake. pandan flavour! thats Esther cutting the cake for me! hahaha

the one at the most left with the glasses on, the cute looking aunty. thats aunty Jacky.

she said to me: "oh Cindy you're so small size if you can find anyone thats smaller than you oh my god i cant believe it!" and then she wallked away. what? hahahahaha! she's so cute!

oh dear lord. this is so so good ever since the last piece i had was in Malaysia.

typical bbq must-haves-chicken wings. and those were delicious. dont know how Brandon merinate them butthey deserved my thumbs up.

oh we have aunty Doreen who was like the QC of that day. she must eat every single thing FIRST once its cooked to sort of, make sure its cooked for eating. haha. oh not actually, she was just too hungry and turned out to be the firstone whose eating every single thing that first came out of the pit.

thats Brandon and aunty Doreen at the side helping to cook things up. because she 'beh tahan' (couldnt stand it anymore) seeing Brandon cooking so slowly.

us started eating out before everyone else does. i was so hungry i didnt have breakfast that morning.

jokes and foods and fruits and desserts. what a lovely day. and i was full as a bloated balloon!

so, i went to the barbeque pit and helped out cooking a little bit.

and that was Lincoln the alcoholic. -.-"

and those aunties gathered together playing Rummy. haha thats their only entertainment after meal. so cute and it was Esther teaching me how to play so that they can have me playing with them next time.
OH WELL, I STILL LOVE GALA CASINO MORE.

and we went to the living room playing Monopoly. i lost interest after 5 minutes and then went to the kitchen and watch rummy! oh wells....monopoly is fun back when i was 10? haha

and.....the end.

seriously, its the end of this post alreay.

i deserve to be poor.

2010-04-23T21:03:00.005+08:00

i seriously am wondering why am i so poor when my money are all enough, in fact, it should be sufficient. and then, i realised what happened just yesterday. (oh what a sunny day i only wore shorts to the city)

so, it was like this, i went to the city for private lesson. OH YES, u heard me, PRIVATE LESSON for my latin dance. Cedric is angry because i wouldnt give in any of my money for ballroom. and then, Trinity Term is commencing in few days time, then, i'll have to pay for my group dance fees, and then competition fees, and then the Oxford University Dancesport Ball, and then i bought quite a number of dance related products via online. ah! now u know why am i so poor! oh on top of all that, i went to this ballroom dancing workshop which consisted 6 hours of intense ballroom dancing.

'kiasu' Cedric and Cindy didnt fully utilise the 1 hour break for rest and foods, instead we took the opportunity to practise out Waltz and Quickstep when the floor is still empty. (ang moh all very steady wan, lunch time means lunch time, they eat and went sun bathing because the sun was up and weather was lovely! wtf!)

ok so one of those dance related products i bought from Amazon was...these! needless me to explain what are these for and what are these ey? ;)

ok, i know now why up till now i still have no time for frivolousity, because i am quite packed up with things i love and i have to do almost everyday. and godamit i only have 24 hours a day, and i must use 8 hours to sleep, sometimes extra 1 or 2 for napping.

so dadmom, my weekly routine will be, library, study, assignments, dance practise, sleep...and i use my spare time for some 'research' which i think i will reveal to you all later..

i took this picture while i was on my way to Oxford Bodelian Library. sunny oxford.

and then, i always book a squash court with Cedric for dance practise 4 hours a week in Green Templeton College, Oxford.

and this, is my favourite machine! the coffee&chocolate making machine. i always call it the magic machine! press a button and my hot drinks will be served in seconds!

my favourite button! haha! Chocomilk!

that little pantry area view from distance.

to be honest, i always like to come to Green Templeton to press their chocomilk and enjoy waiting for Cedric in the common room. i will always show up early because i dont mind at all. i tell u why i dont mind...
because of this! their fantastic common room! with a flat screen tv on top and comfy sofas.

with a cup of my chocolmilk and tv turned on to BBC news. then i can read oxford mail while waiting for that chicken man to show up. ohand lately its all hoohaa about the volcano eruption. everyone was stucked in everywhere. -.-

never in my life i have to check weather forecase everyday before i go out and worry about my flight statuses whenever i want to go off my country for vacay. but here, at this place, weather changes everyday. even sun can be deceiving.

so this morning i was awaken due to hunger. major starving! i went to my fridge and practically made myself a lovely breakfast

hahah! how glamorous! pork steak, scrambled egg, sunny side-up, butter cooked mushrooms, toasts with raspberry jam and hot chocolate. now i think im too full for lunch.

owh and, whenever i have spare time, or while i was eating my meals, this is what i do multitasking..

watching real cool videos! so erm, yeah, this is the 'research' i was talking about. haha

ok Varsity match is coming up okay! i have to watch more videos for inspirations and improvements! and i certainly think that spending my extra money on private dancing lessons are far more worhty than spending those on cloths lor, so i gave up shopping on cloths for dancing instead.

oh please dont misunderstand daddymommy, i do spend my major time on studying and assignments and university study thing dont worry. its only like, 5 hours a week thing.

so now u know what my routines are and obviously dont have time for alchohol, dating, clubbing, man watching, shopping, walking around, loitering, etcetc.

and for now, i really am looking forward to come home..

i miss JonJon! like MAD! i can only look at his picture everyday and night! pang sai also looking at his picture! wtf. this is how much i miss him, so u all please show him in front of the webcam while webcamming with me! haha

oh and i certainly miss my brothers eventhough they are both very retarded and not good looking. but they are the best brothers lah! sibeh funny i want to laugh even looking at their faces.

and obviously, needless to say, i miss daddymommy most!
xxx

alright, its a sunny Friday afternoon, and i've got to go watch my loaded dance videos and prepare to work then.

speak soon xx

easter holidays 2010!

2010-04-19T08:26:00.011+08:00

i was thinking of cancellingmy blog. but then again, i cant, because i still love being vain and talking to myself. and then i know daddy and mommy read my blogs. so from now onwards, dont expect anything general in this place.

updates!!

i have been busy during easter break. busy busy busy! besides running to library almost everyday, only ALMOST. because i need to spare some time for dancing as well.
there are some cool party times, and there is something that never changed as well.

such as,work. yes, above is my work station. basically thats what i'm dealing with when i was working. believe it. i can make good cocktails, mocktails, whatever mixed etcetc.

owh daddy mommy, dont worry im happy working in this bar because my bosses look like this,see! so instead of being bullied i had fun every week! haha!

and then i have an (asian) dinner with my dancing seniors. well they are all seniors in the team, except Cedric and I that were only in it for 6months.

thats Qu (from Malaysia) and WanZhen (from Singapore) doing that dancing thing.
haha i tell u what. a bunch of dancing people gather around for dinner, we talked about dancing all night! LITERALLY. from the coaches, to the team, to the floor! we digged it!

well yea we went dancing. we book the squash courts for dancing practices 3 times a week. and yes we camwhored because the sun was almost setting and we thought Green Templeton was beautiful!

and so there was one afternoon which was a Saturday i recalled. Sun shine SO bright after our morning (FREAKING EARLY) dancing, we were amazed by the sun! theentire Green Templeton garden was breathtaking! so, we decided to...

yes. celebrate the sun by taking alot of pictures as well. and yes, Cedric do loves asking me to jump. he said then the pictures look exciting and fantastic. -.-

pardon his pathetic timing.

he was amazed as well. pfff, singaporean.

ok i passed by the mathematical faculty. its right besides our college.

i thought i'd be tired and gave up going trainings! apparently i was wrong because morning is the best time for me to perform! and the sun was SO BRIGHT it literally bright up my morning blues. i always walk home with a smile in Saturday morning.

ok haha i know ur bored of this picture probably, because this is one of my favourite screen shot for us doing Quickstep! hahaha we thought it was our best shot for ballroom already.

well, there's serious times, of course there's party time! and alcohol time!

new friend from Malaysia, Natalie!

always on-the-go drinking/pubbing/clubbing partner, Alif! allah will punish him for he had sinned!

thats Jeannie on the left and Elaine on the right.
(the long hair Elaine yea Daddy! NOT the sarawak one! wtf i dont know why so many people named themselves elaine)

owh thats a random sunny day while walking to the Oxford Law Faculty.

thats another random picture of pubbing with Alif in city arms. cheap beers on Monday! 5 pounds for a jug!!!!!!!!!

and RECENTLY though, a sunny (again!) saturday morning. the sun brings people out. i happened to bumped into the Oxford Folks parade! the entire Cornmarket Street was crowded! full of joy and musics and dances and laughters! so happy!!

the Oxford Folks festival mascott. so scary!

haha this was my favourite! they all so cute walk and hop and dance! ALL AUNTY AUNTY!

i grab my chance to snap a picture on such a sunny day! how can i miss it right?

and did u realise the name of this festive? its the OXFORD FOLKS FESTIVAL. so its all FOLKS! semua orang tua. hahahaha! so cute! its a festive morning!

and that was the only Saturday morning i blew Cedric off dancing practise because i was so lazy to get up. ended up having a meeting with him as well, because we need to talk and discuss about our progress on dancing. (so basically we watch our videos of our trainings which we recorded and we watch it over and over again and we made notes to them, and then we compare!) hahaha! total kiasu! i now have a note book specially for ballroom dancing notes!

and to wrap things up, i will post 2 recent pictures of me with a no make up face under the sun in front of my hall! looks like a resort ok!

tell me does it look like a resort?

and yes, i gained weights as i wished to and, lack of sit ups and my constant drinking of beers lately, i have a tummy as well. -.- ccb

oh! and this was part of the reasons that i gained weight as well! Cedric's inpromtu mushroom and minced prok dish! it was quite a dish actually! *slurps!

ps: iloveyoudaddyandmommyandjonjon.

Hilary Term 2010?

2010-03-19T18:53:00.009+08:00

yeap. they have a name for each term in Oxford U. and this current term's name was "Hilary Term". how a very brief term that it had ended just like that.

anyways, Hilary term is all about frivolities. money spendings. etcetc..

and one of the frivolous activities that i attended, nonetheless it was AMAZING, AWESOME, SPECTACULAR, was inter varsity boxing match! its THE rival between oxford and Cambridge (again!). anyway, it was a spectacular show!

teams line-ups.
needless to say, the Dark Blues are Oxford-ians.

ok i admit that i didnt know a single thing about boxing. i was in luck with a quite annoying but sort of a, boxing encyclopedia sitting next to me (a middle aged man with a case full of boxing leaflets!). clearly he's a boxing lover! or whatever, i know he knows in and out about boxing.

ps// Melvin was good, according to THE middle aged man.

and he bleed ALOTTTT ALOTTTTT while boxing. and...

he won the match anyhow.

what an exciting match! i shouted my lungs out like mad with Julia beside me.

the 103rd Oxbridge boxing match was held in Oxford Town Hall, and that place was amazing. and there's a huge built in sort of organ in front of the hall. magnificent.

after a weeknight full of excitement, i then spent the rest of the following week eating out! i know right, i know.

celebrating Wei Sin's birthday eating out in Soju. one of the Oxford's best chinese restaurant. 2 thumbs up! and thats the crowd that went to the birthday dinner.

*ahem* i look kinda fat in that photo and in fact, i looked like i was the fattest! HAHAHHAHA!!!!!

oooo, and i had one of the best dining experiences in Xi'an with these people..

Tan Yi Ling

Jeannie Chong sakai

Min Yuen

and...haha, me.

well we did had fun. besides talking shits and laughed like mad people,

see! i wasn't lying! look how happy Jeannie was! i know E was good at physical gestures.

Gary made us cocktails! on the house! hahahaha!

i nevertheless didn't waste a single drip of it!

those Pandan somethingsomething were lovely! no, seriously, he said he added in Malibu, something else, but there are few as i recalled him saying... alright, he made Pandan Martini for me as well when i dined in days ago with my dancemates. and that 5 shots cost me scratched and injured knees!

Beautiful night which we managed to captured the fun from all our faces.

by convention, (haha!) we took a group(?) picture before we called it a night.

ps// i grew taller.

the end

some revolutionary changes

2010-03-05T23:29:00.013+08:00

alright, so my blog was dead and i had received several complaints from my friends asking me to revive it. okay okay! here it goes. i was busy, with everything. and then i alwayas wanted to update my blog but i couldnt find time because i was busy watching the lovey dovey taiwanese love drama because Vanness in it so i must watch! FML.

and then there was this one fine afternoon when i was hijacking my friend's laptop, we suddenly went and turn on our FRIENDSTER. haha can u believe this. i didnt log in to this thing for eon years already. we had a blast laughing out at our old pictures. looking at our old self through pictures were epic. and so, i decided to grab those old times into my blog. you'll never knew how much you and i have changed after seeing these...

owh by the way, caution! its a PICTURES HEAVY POST. if u cannot take it u may navigate away from this page. TQVM. wtf.

2006

so, this was one of the most pathetic old picture of myself. the story was one fine day mommy and i went in to this saloon and got my pathetic hair permed into curls. i was devastated because i hate locks like this and i straightened it all back after a week. @.@"

2007

well this one, hrmm. its quite a hystorical one. it was a beautiful night with beautiful memories behind this picture. it was a fireworks competition with a perfect date. heart wretching stories~ hahahah! FML la. it was a good night all in one word. and, i looked freakingly skinny!

2007

owh and then this. i remember this picture! i was so happy because i received a present of my life. u saw that thing around my neck in this picture? yeah, my 19th birthday present. this picture shows a happy but stupid girl with a lovely necklace around her neck. looking stupidly happy...and skinny =.="

2008

well this one, ok this one was a good one. a night out to dinner with Jia and Pearl at TGI. it was one of my happiest nightout with my friends. too bad it'll never happened again. SHIT! i remember i spent RM50 on the meal itself here! and i had tap water! #@$%#%&

2009

ah!this one. one sudden day i went to the saloon and asked Samatha aka the hairstylist to chop off my tress! and mommy told me i looked like ghost in short hair for about a week! she only stop saying that after really, alot of my friends and family said that its not too bad. HAHAHA! EPIC but i will never go cut my hair this short anymore i guess... PLUS, again, i was freakingly, pathetically, skinny!

no! seriously! i was disgustingly skinny! u dont believe i'm so going to prove it to you! NOW!

2007!
u saw that! u saw that legs over there! &%$%^# i almost puke when i see this! why was i so unhealthy???

i seriously am very happy with how fat i am now!
did you see the significant difference? eh at least u wont puke arent u? :))
and this picture was taken 2010 January!

my pictures were posted up in time order... therefore, the next one will be a little bit closer to present..

owh yes, in the year of 2009 i became a ghost! haha! wtf. i was flapper ghost in Halloween 2009!

and then my hair grew longer as time past as well... thats me in Birmingham 2009 as well..

owh wells, this is probably the most recent picture of myself. its taken roughly 2 weeks ago in London..Chinese New Year dinner.

besides having fun looking and laughing at myself...i did put on some collages of pictures together as well. u will see comparisons now..

my family potrait(s). hahah! its really funny on we stand when it comes to pictures taking! we all stand at the exact same position!
not a huge difference but well, u see how funny my brother used to look like? ok i show u something more bombastic!

thats us 2006! brother-sister love. blek! -.-

2010.
at least we look less pathetic now..

owh well, i have 2 brothers..so,

yeawyeaw used to be so adorable..

now.dark, tanned, fat, pimples,curly hair.......etcetc..

we used to looked like we thought we were darn cool like that.....

then we thought that we were freaking happy together..

but hey, actually we were really happy. such happy loving siblings. hahaha

and thats us now =.=" yes like, now. lately. 2010. as usual we were still very happy just that (i think) we looked less pathetic now.

so when the clock start ticking, world is spinning, i'm changing, people around me are changing as well. so,

Pearlyn changed

Bernice changed

Chermaine changed as well.

Charmaine Leong and I 2 years ago(2008). that was my 20th Birthday. look at that skinny frame of mine! $#%^*%

and thats us recently. well, 2010. January. i grew fatter at least!

thats my favourite cousin, Cynthia Wong. that was us 2006. looking like some pathetic dont know what!

ok thats the most recent and DECENT picture we took together. 2009.

u see after all these years you might think that looks changed but we're all still the same old Pearlyn, same old Charmaine, same old whoever it is..and I,

was a decent long haired girl who only drinks orange juice (WTF#$@#^*)

now shove the shots straight to my mouth!

from loving a tsih tzu

became a toy poodle aka JONJON lover!
omg i tell you no dog campetes agaisnt Jon! he is the best! u dont want me to start this..haha

from pathetic Joyclub clan dancing for parties...

to actually dancing on the dancefloor competing for myself.

i mean its ironic how all these physical matters changed and we were all quite happy about it, at the same time, everything else was changing as well. despite the fact that its a good or a bad change, we cant stop the world to spin. people move forward to whichever direction that they think fits. how much of a wonder i was looking at these pictures and was thinking about the stories behind. (i know! u must be thinking wtf pictures also got so many stories!) some are laughable ones, some just, pretty forgettable. some were quite, painful and forgotten.

i was just going to say, change while the world is changing. else you'll be stuck in the past. i mean your physical appearance and, yourself.

cheers. xxx

this is a (cindy) dance-related post

2010-03-05T20:21:00.001+08:00

ok so this could be a typical cindy-boring blog post about me dancing again. well you can't really blame me because first of all, this is going to be quite a last bit of dance post for there is no important dance comps coming up till May. Secondly, its the Inter Varsity match in BLACKPOOL! so, let me blog this out for this one last time..
so this is the legendary Winter Gardens theatre house in Blackpool. the magnificent.

it was amazing. one of the most impressive dancefloor i'd ever dance in.

to be honest, before all theeeese, i had never dreamt of myself dancing on such dancefloor. moreover, its blackpool. its almost like a dream come true.

well, joining the oxford university dancesport team was one of the most beautiful coincidences i've had. you know i used to get really upset back then simply because i couldn't find a dancing partner. and now, my doors are open for me to all these. i should be very delighted. very satisfied.

well, back to Blackpool, its a 3days 2nights stay in Blackpool itself. it was one heck of a wonderful experience. although i never clubbed there. wtf !@*#@%#

we checked in to a very cute and warm Bed & Breakfast near Winter Gardens. it was my first B&B experience ever since i came UK. :)) its The Albany Hotel.

owh i was smart when I receievd the emails about room allocation and therefore i was allocated with Colleen (the American dancer in my team) as i wished.
an en-suite room. very cosy. a cute double bed and just enough space for the 2 of us.

there's also a flat screen tv and a closet right beside. ok the timing was just right when i snapped this photo. not that im so ham sap taking pictures of people kissing on tv okay! oh, its the Vampire Diaries anyway! hahahaha

there's also a cute little area beside our bed for us to make coffee and tea. very nice ain't it?

the beautiful tiny lobby in the hotel. we love how this place were decorated.

and i cannot not mention the karaoke machine! look at how facinated Richard was! he was playing with it all morning.

well, we were up superb early for hair & make up. and off we went to the competition..

dancing on such ballroom floor was amazing i have to say.

posing with the very gay&vain(and very tired looking!!) partner

WanZhen. i love her because she's one of the friendliest dancemate i ever had!

and thats, one of my favourite couple from Oxford. Daniel & Sarah. hahaha and i know that Daniel was from Brookes also! omg we both betrayer! HAHAHAHHA. but this team was so great who wants to join the Brookes' u say true or not??

well, i didn't win. i was devastated for that entire night and the next day. but to think of it, among the hundreds of couple thats against us, we've made it through most of them and got to the final stage. i should be satisfied. you cant be too overrated.

therefore, i joined the entire team celebrate Oxford's victory when everything's done. We were crazy dancing and singing on the dancefloor, because, it was playing DONT STOP BELIEVING! look at Mike on the left. xxxxxxxxxx

overall, the team was excited, happy, delighted. i dont know but they're all happy with those silverwares! Oxford is the overall winner in IVDA 2010!

so, after i came home and i found some of my dancing pictures on the website for the previous competitions...

i think we were waltz-ing in this one

and i definitely think that we were doing the cha here.

ok see! i told you, its ALL about my dancing thing in this post. you should be complaining already. i know i know. BUT, i tell you what, i'm going to blog about something not-so-bad the next post! u stay tuned!

well, till then...

i dated a dateless girl after Valentines

2010-02-20T21:47:00.004+08:00

well, its Chinese New Year and everyone's blogs are about Chinese New Year, Ang Paos, Foods, New Year Clothes..blahhh. But mine is not even close to any of that. true. i'm in UK and they don't celebrate Chinese New Year and there is no one that i want to celebrate with at all. Yes yes and Mr KeeHong Soon said UK style CNY no ang pao wan! wtfwtfwtf to the max! BUT MY BOSS GAVE ME ONE! haha

However, i'm not all alone and doomed. Besides the fact that my day and night focuses are on exams and Dancing competitions, basically i have no time left for me to think about being saddist and lonely here. I still can see silver lining through the thunder storm. I have a friend that we finally decided to splurge on a night out. its like a date! movie (watched Valentine's Day somemore wtf) --> candle light dinner at Beefeater. yes we ate beef!

our 12 pounds 3-course-meal at Beefeater.

Elaine.

well we did promised each other to dressed up for this "date" thing and we swore we had to take loads of photos.

and there it ended. we felt so pai seh lah because all the ang mohs were like looking at us one kind...the asians photos snapping thing again~ blaaa..
owh and did i mention, i had the BEST apple crumble in my life so far at Beefeater! perfectly burnt crumbs, soft and sweet bramble apple with a tiny bit of sourness (just like how i like it), creamy custard sauce. I swear it was the best Apple Crumble i had so far!

well back to recent, i'm currently having a blistered ankle, partnerless trainings (because he is so smart he flew back to Singapore to get scholarship and then missed out all competition trainings wtf), shredding confidence, fantasies dreams every night, and some unknown confidence to win the competition! i will be going to Blackpool for competition this weekend.

i hope i can bow for finals for once again. wish me luck!

the end..

Chinese New Year aka Valentines?

2010-02-18T18:52:00.008+08:00

first of all, i know its my fault for abandoning this blog for eon ages. and now i am finally free and to revive it again.

well last week, was Chinese New Year? not quite a happening one for me in the year 2010. but it was a happy one! lets overlook what was i doing in CNY while all other of my mates were happy eating reunion dinners and blablabla....

Waltz-ing in SUDA 2010

Jive-ing in SUDA

ChaCha in SUDA

i think i was doing my Jive here. I love this picture though! sorry abit vain but i really love this picture!

and then i didnt really win because my Ballroom pulled down my overall marks. but still ok lah i beat Cambridge. hahaha

'the' Singaporean partner that i kept complaining before. well, but now, i realised he was a nice person anyways. and a great partner. and he gave me Tulips on Valentines because we were dancing and looking at each other while the clock strikes 12. HAPPY VALENTINES CINDY =.="

my American team mate, Colleen. She taught me how to bake the best Chocolate Brownies EVER!

Julia. the korean. nothing special about her because, really, there isn't anything special about her. haha

well, ok i went back to Oxford after the competition and it was already 2am. everybody else done eating. done having fun. therefore, i went celebrate my own CNY dinner with few of the other people a few days after...
and thats Deeviah cant wait to eat! and THATS my chicken wings on the bottom right that mommy taught me how to make! IT WAS HEAVENLY! lol

as for Valentines.... i am dateless, bf-less, and valentine-less. BUT...

i have Valentines presents!

1) Flowers from Cedric

2) lovely Godiva chocolates from Jeannie. haha i ate them all already Jeannie!

3)
Chocolate lollipop from Weiyee. LOVELY. i also, ate half of it already! hahahahaha!!! too hungry! sorry!

and then i went to Work in Xi'an because it was Valentines night and Gary thought it would be busy...

ps// i got a ang pao from Amy aka my boss!

i am most happy this Valentines!

how about yours?

surprise-ed?

2010-02-11T18:09:00.007+08:00

no i wasn't kidding. my return on January was really a surprise for these people. my friends. i swore i quite never told any of them my return. my appearance in Charmaine's door step started out with alot of shoutings and ended with alot of huggings.

a very random and spontanous outing. KNNBCCB CHAU HAI *G* whom kind of literally spoilt my entire spontanous yet happiet night out with them people! %@#$#@% i already swearing and feel like swearing shits to even think about it! FML 99 it was my fault lah anyway. i regretted.

anyway, these are the people i hung out with MOST during my return...
needless to introduce them aint it? haha well, besides my family i guess my readers are them only. right Pearl? right Charmaine? right Amos? right Christine? hahaha.

those are quite important..about 1% important. because the rest of the 99% are of MYSELF. hahaha!!!! FML again, 99.

shes 0.5%

she's another 0.5%

and then my trip with them to, Melacca...
well, i just recovered from a quite serious ill, i am lazy and strengthless to type anything more than this, let the pictures do the talking..

thats us on the backseat of Vincent's 7-seater! we were delighted.

i think i still look presentablehere, DESPITE THE FACT THAT THEY ALL WEAR SUNGLASSES AND I FORGOT TO BRING ALONG MINE!

i like her. she's like the big sister i never had. *sayang* and she's getting married. in Taiping, and i can't attend here wedding. @!#%$@^

a 4 girls 3 guys trip. thats us. i love how contrast this picture looks because it shows that i am more feminine than the rest of them both who are posing like mad, for once. haha

you cannot miss this chicken rice ball thing when you visit melacca. I TELL U, I MISS IT NOW ALREADY!!!

oh yea, we visited the musuems there for RM3...which is....less than 1POUND!

and we had our own version of history class i one of the marine musuem. we were all very educated.

we also went to the river pitt to take group pictures like this, *Vincent is not in the picture so sad because he was taking it. mm hmm..thank you very much.

and then we got our pictures snap by Amos's amazing camera while walking to dont know where, i forgot already.

and then we went and buy ice-cream because IT WAS SO FREAKING HOT DONT KNOW WHY!

yes. this one. Christine's favourite. the BABA laksa which was one of the local delicacies in Melacca.

of course we all waste no time digging into the foods before they're gone!
we had a monster eater aka Mike Cheong!
we can waste no time! we waste no time!

of course i think i want to take a picture of Christine and Vincent because they were the best couple friend i had so far.

and then, Melacca trip ended up with alot of shopping for local goods and Satay celup! some foods that looks disgusting but tasted heavenly.

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whats next?

abit of Taiping!

i was so happy early morning got myself ready and off to Taiping!

i kind of camwhore with my brother on the way there...

warm greetings by the yummy home-made laksa. i would jump down frm Clive Booth for this RIGHT NOW! NAOOOO.

ah! i was most delighted to see Maggie during this trip. SO HARD TO SEE HER LATELY.

it was a perfect trip.
(family post continues in Part 2 later on...)

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oh i can't miss this out!

BBQ PLAZA!!!!

Elaine Chai would love to kill me because this is all she missed in Malaysia!

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alright besides all the Pearlyn and Charmaine people, this is the one that i honestly feel the HAPPIEST TO SEE in my return. HAPPIEST, after P & C...

Andrew Tay.

thats all.

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i was touched like mad, can cry like fucks because of the efforts she put in just to meet up with me during my breif visit back home..
Chermaine

i had a wonderful lunch, one of the best day out with you babe.

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to be continued.....

2009 wrap ups!

2010-02-05T00:32:00.004+08:00

hello.. i knowww, i haven't been updating my blogs lately. i was just too busy. busy with almost everything. i haven't got time to blog about christmas, haven't got time to write about new year, working, people, Dublin trip with Bernice...and whatnots. well, i was guilty, therefore here i am, class cancelled writting blogs early morning.

year 2009 was definitely an exciting year for me. i have to admit that. full with everything i had ever imagine that could have happened to me all my life. i'm doing a brief wrap up post of my entire 2009, therefore, loads of pictures ahead. u may navigate away from this site if you're not interested.

well basically, early half of the year was already been blogged.. the excitement starts from th day my family sent me off to a foreign land...

leaving on a jet plane......blablabla...
13hours of flight and here i am in Oxford....thanks to daddy and mommy..much sacrificed.

i was blissfully sent to Oxford for my Law Degree. talk about being lucky.

and the journey begins...
began with knowing this sucker. Malay dude, Alif.

no, not about him, its about what he brought me....
very sayangness MinYuen and Jeannie the sakaiiii. they were seriously the friendliest strangers i've ever met! hahaha! we clicked!

throughout my stay in the uk last year, i had marvelous adventures i had ever thought of.

1) i got a place and a tiny little trophy in Latin Dancing competition. and also the Singaporean partner. he was quite funny actually. lol

2) Swindon - homestay with people i don't know for Christmas.

nicely set up christmas tree in the living room of the Senior family. very very movie-like. the christmas songs and the whole christmasy decorated rooms.

nicely decorated side cabinet. i really felt Christmas.

table was set nicely before meals served. i think thats how they do it because they always do that before every meals.

my host family father and son cutting turkey for my christmas lunch.

a complete, perfectly aromatic christmas lunch.

turkey. bacon. sausage. baked potatoes. bruscles sprouts. purple cabbage. christmas cake.

a simple yet really tasty christmas dinner. and i've got christmas gifts too!
that marked the end of my 2009 Christmas in UK. one of a kind.

3)
another great yet lucky encounter in Oxford.
thanks to Jeannie, i've got a job in Xi'an chinese restaurant & bar in Summertown. lol. i LOVE this place! i LOVE the bosses! i LOVE it here!Gary held a Christmas dinner with the staffs 2 days before Christmas in the restaurant itself. with all chef's recommended dishes. thumbs up!

4)New Year celebration in London with Elaine Tan. what a wonderful stay with Brandon as well.

5) year 2010 started off well with my trip to Dublin to see an old friend - Bernice Lim..

first day was to Belfast with her and her mates. and thats B and i after.....3 years?

and then Sligo for the spontaneous trip. *we didnt do much homework before going though.

see! thats me with a tiny piece of paper in my hand! that was the map to the hotel we stayed in for that night. a 2D1N trip.

yea. her purpose to visit Sligo was this place! the Graveyard of a great poet of "Lake Isle of Innesfree". you remember this poem? i have to admit and swear to whatever, this place has the strongest wind i had ever imagine in my life! it could litterally blow me off. on top of that, it was FREEZING COLD. what do you think har Bernice lim! HAHA.

walked around Sligo in just half a day, that was a really tiny city. we round it up with Subway as our lunch before we head back to Dublin. THANKS FOR THE LUNCH LAH B!

eventhough it was kind of all messed up when we first arrived Sligo. evethough we quarrelled in the middle of Sligo city. evethough she was pathetic because she really talks alot, just like the old times. We did enjoyd Sligo and each other's company after...err....3 years? hahaha. we both agreed that Sligo-ians has the warmest heart.

and i am looking forward for Bernice's visit to Oxford in March! i have all ALMOST well planned B. im sure it will be a fantastic trip for you!

and then? i went back to Malaysia for a surprise visit for all of my loved ones in Malaysia..

the entire 2 weeks wasnt great but it was lovely. it totally fit in to my ultimate purpose back home. my family. my dog. my friends. thats all. lovely.

with hopes that the new semester begins with all new hopes.

ps// i am back in shape for my ballroom dancing competition training too!

end.

in reminiscence of the good old times

2010-01-23T04:38:00.002+08:00

i thought i had so happily left and i was happily arrived. i am in my homeland at this second, my home, Malaysia.

i was wrong for what i was feeling. i thought, i really for once and all i thought that i went away with that heavy heart. it was heavy but empty. so eager to start a new and the life that i always wanted. and i did it. i had all i ever wanted and all i ever wanted to feel for all my life. for the entire 4 and a half months that i had left home, i was on top of my life.

and when i thought i had moved on, everything had fallen into place. nicely fit into every single pieces, i happily bought the tickets back home for a short short 2 weeks. and for various reasons i have wanted to come back home for, i proved myself wrong, once again, for coming back. it all has came back to me now.. and i hated it. i despise it.

i open the folders i had longed to forget. i carefully stared into the pictures i use to look at. i look into the direction on the highway that i longed to forget how bad it used to feel like. surprisingly i could still feel the pain. how is that possible yea? while pushing that self forward, something deep down inside somehow wishes me to stay. that one step was hard to take perhaps.

i dont know why and i certainly hate it. but all that was in my head now was going back to that tiny little city of Oxford and continue my undone self-set future. back to Oxford continue moving forward and hopefully, the next time i came home and look back, things will be as what i thought it will be like. at least close to it. because as far as i know now, i am not even close.

besides my family that i love the most now, i have not want to come back here..

i begin to wonder, whether to come back for this once was the best decision of all. though, i am most happy the moment i saw my family. besides, i had been regretted.

i have to admit though, those that i barely recall, those that were dead long ago, are all coming back to me now. there were always something we know we would never ever do again. there were always things that you know it'd stay dead forever.

FML

untitled

2010-01-09T10:53:00.004+08:00

it was snowing heavily the other night. of course in the midst of enjoying my freshly loaded stupid show to have a laugh before i sleep, my mates called and asked me out for a so called "surprise". so, looking like a crap i walked out of my block and i saw, a snowman with boobs stood there looking at me, with few of them looking at me with snowballs on their hands! SNOWFIGHT PEOPLE!!! first time in my life! hahaha. i was playing with snow and all....thick thick snow.... looking ugly and stupid, we then proceeded to eat! as usual..

anyway, i woke up the next morning looking out my window, how a very beautiful but i-hate-it scene..i just cant help but to snap down the look of it...

apparently it was still snowing the whole day...inches thick snow made me feel so lazy to do anything. no buses. no work. offices are closed...blahhh. and sorry lah mommy i didnt go out and take those pictures of me playing with snows and wearing thick thick looking very good, because it was just too freezing cold!!! cannot even tahan even walk out can? @$@#%@% even now i am typing in freezing fingers because wtf my room is in the corner room so my windows are right beside where my hands are positioned, therefore my fingers are frozen. FML.

i counted, after coming back from London, i have 7 days in between to the day i am flying to Dublin.. which is tomorrow! Ireland here i come! hahaha

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fully utilized this 7 days, i had finished watching all the episodes of the stupid show i always watch. i realized that i have another crazy 6 empty and bored days in my room! nothing to watch and FB everyday can die! so i dont know why and dont know how i started watching this stupid love taiwanese drama. it was aired on tv at 2003.

i cannot admit that it still touched my feelings a little bit but i guess i am already a different person to watch the same show compared to the one that watched this show 7 years ago.

i remember, i was watching this show in such a little girl's stupid dellusioned heart. so touched. watching chasing the episodes every single day. so shy when there is kissing scenes. so touched even felt like crying when the girl was sick and going to die. (WTF who cares lah nowaday this kind of you die i die everybody in the show die story!)

and now, i realised i watched it in the very different perspective. for example, i scolded so hard at the kissing scenes, BECAUSE IT WAS SO STUPID! NO LOVE, NO PASSION! WTF. sex scenes also like being forced like that. for another example, i used to think the guy in the show was ugly, or well, i vaguely remember his face. but now, I CAN TELL HE IS VERY HANSEM NEH! omg i want to faint already. hahaha!! owh another one, HIS MANDARIN like fucks! hahahaha i laughed so hard, sounds like Louis Koo. HAHAHHA!!! and then i non stop complaining the girl's outfit in the show. OMG!! WHO WAS THE STYLIST LAH! like her outfits were picked by blind people! hahaha cannot tahan FHL.

anyhow, that still wasnt what i was intended to write about the show but i just cant help it.

i read an old friend's blog today. just so happened, i thought of this name. why are you still so sad? new year new person my friend. i wish you love.

i am pretty sure much of the people think that year 2009 past really fast aint it? i do think so. i felt like it was just yesterday i was panicking about my subjects failed and resit all the papers. it was just like yesterday i got all prepared and then people sent me off in the airport. it was like yesterday, when all the dramas and hoo haah happened. and it has all become faded memories. without even a thought of thinking back, i am moving forward with a very very bright and lightened heart to see my future. i will never knew what is coming to me, afraid, but excited. i seem to know what i want to do, yet, i am looking forward to things that will pop out in my life unexpectedly. just like how they always be.

i pray and thanked each day i woke up. thankful that i am still here and all these i am having are for real. (haha seriously at times i still thought that i was dreaming. wtf) i couldnt complain for i know, what i have are not all neccessary. i am just too lucky and blessed.

you, if you think i am refering to you, never had i regretted that etch. stand up and be a man. a man who is not so emotional driven. even i see shining stars in cloudy nights, im sure you will see silver lining in rainy days.

holidays are ending soon, people, Happy Holidays, Happy New Year....

loves,
Cindy

2nd...3rd...4th day in London with Brandon..

2010-01-09T02:27:00.003+08:00

well after New Year the days left in London was fantastic! i spent alot of time with Brandon and his family (aunty aunty), they all reminded me of my own aunties... all the hokkien and loud jokes.

this was our group pic taken in one of the bridges in London. on New Year's day, before my hairspray theatre show.

and then the next day, we went had brunch in harvester eat Pub food with Brandon and his aunty aunty...

Elaine, Brandon and i.

ps: can u please tell me im fat!!! PLEASE! am i fat here? hahahah!!! i used B's wii fit board to weigh myself!!! i gained freaking another 3kg! hahahahah!!!!! JOY TO THE WORLD. JOY TO CINDYWONGSHINYEE.

Greenhouse to do some garden shopping. we found all these feathery stuffsin store and decided to cam whore. haha! thats Anna on the most right. she's from Seremban Malaysia also and married to a Seremban man who lives in London now! wtf and she's already 35years old and is a mother of one!

sigh* after one whole day of cam whoring and walking shits, we decided to make some Malaysian yumms yumms for B's family for his kind hospitality. we made PAN MEE! omg FML mommy would be jealous because i didnt even made PAN MEE for her before when i was back home.

you wont believe this, Nick brought us to a art musuem which, a very untalented + not artistic me failed to appreciate all the art exhibits. therefoe above was a picture of being stupid in the centre of London. LOL. and he gave me a new name lately, Cinders. FHL.

owh well, this trip to London was one of the best trips i had in UK so far....
i went to knock on Simon Cowell's room.. hahaha

played and touched fishes in the Greenhouse. aunty Doreen said this i will become lucky if i get to touch the koi.

this, is Brandon. who was really kind that bought me Hairspray theatre show tickets and got the best seats for me! he said first experience must be perfect. how thank you. omg FML if he is good looking i'd be falling in love with him already. HAHAHA wtf.

we met Sandra and Lincoln at night and drink and shisha! wtf. in UK also i can shisha u say how cool am i now.

anyways, i am going off because i am hungry and its freaking -7 c outside right now.

bye bye

wtf i hate this post this is so meaningless..

1st day in London with Brandon

2010-01-07T01:40:00.008+08:00

ok so, u know lots of my classmates went travelling to Rome, Paris and i dont know where, and some of them went home, i decided to visit Brandon in London and to celebrate the new year with him.. Elaine Tan followed me as my company...
thats the first picture we ever took. Thats Debbie in the middle aka B's sister.

we started out the first day in London with Dim Sum!
at this Chinese Restaurant which has AWEFUL service! F the restaurant's life man!

u know the girls camwhoring thing before meal..

though the service sucks i cant deny the egg tarts are yumms!

and we spent the rest of the day visiting Madam Tussauds!
the magnificent (no lah, i think its magnificent only! haha) wax museum!

crazy lots of people!

thats almost all of us here whose in line that day. Deb was the photographer!

i spotted the Beckams from far and we had to squeze in to take pictures with these waxes statutes! PFFF we were squezing ourselves like dont know what for these lifeless statutes! gah

Christina Aguilera has great boobs and i had to take a picture with her! she is so tiny omg! and she was wearing heels okay!? so I AM NOT SHORT! u imagine here she took off her heels lah!!!

erm the man of the dream, prince Williams... yooooo..he so tall! LIKE GIANT! geli! u look at his father! CB man! FHL (ok i cant let any one royal read this aint it? or else he might sue me for defamation or something he is royalties here in UK ma! knnnccb)

and u know hor, i, am a very, not religous, but i respect buddhism and things like that. i pray alot wan ma when i was back in malaysia right? so...
i took a picture with dalai Lamma! HAHAHHAHA. with my long lost signature pose! now u tell me u miss me SPL, Charmaine Leong! hahaha

Brad Pitt was cool but i also, squeze like fucks then only can take a picture with him! CHAU ANG MOH! they all like siao lang like that take take take tak habis habis with these waxed people!

this is the tv studio part of the musuem. i also dont know who are these two. looks cute tho! LOL

ah! High School Musical! Zac looks, fake here...

hahaha!!! i took a picture with Arbishek Bachan leh!! IBU!!!! Eh IBU!! see!!! this is the Bachan!!!!

then Rooney. ok i dont like him lah somemore he so fugly. omg he looks like Skrek with hair u know? somemore i makenoise whole day saying i want to take pics with Rooney because i want to show chau Ah Boy aka my brother. hahaha! he is fake la Brother, so he cant give me his autograph. lol

and then hor, got referre like that wan neh! i also dont know who is this!

then i beh song, i went over to this dude...Tiger Woods. and decided to give him a punch on his face la for his scandelous sexing with 7 hoes! fuck him la but i still dont think he did any HUGE mistake. HAHAHHA. wtf

HAHAHA! terminator! SO HUGE lah him!

we then moved on to the other scray parts of the musuem and left...
thats us in Leicester Square. they had a fun fair that night and i want facinated AT ALL. i was just hungry. FML

and it was new year eve aint it? you must have thought that i went Embankment and countdown watch fireworks in front of the eye of london, NO! i went to, GALA..ahaha!!! casino. mmmm it was way better and it was one helluvan experience.
E and I having a small tiny miny teeny bet on the russian roullete. JUST VERY TINY ONE mommy! hahaha!!! and we cheered and hug each other in the casino when the clock strikes 12. Happy New Year...yayyyy...blahhhh..all the people went straight back to their tables and continue betting! HAHAHAHA!

and thats how i celebrate my new year eve!

today was BUSY!

2009-12-22T10:49:00.004+08:00

i have to believe that i am showered with love and laughters lately. It was Hooi Thien's birthday and i bought her a cake. little did i know the rest of them had plans to surprise her later hat night, and of course, i complied with the plan. ;)
with me acting as their front man, they slowly marched to the kitchen with the mash potato cake (because the real cake they bought was squashed into no shape. haha). Look at Burton at the side. LOL. thats Elaine holding the cake. NO Elaine Chai didnt go surgery, its Elaine Tan. another elaine. gosh i have 4 elaines in my life now...@#$%^

oh for us OBU-ians, classmates' birthdays are like festives! we celebrate and we celebrate it HARD. u remember how they celebrated mine? LOL. anyways...
see the amount of food they prepared? party foods. with the HUGE baked salmon in the middle...
and this HUGE ham. haha Burton always had it for the western style. -.~"

and you guess what the guys bought for Hooi Thien as her 23rd birthday present?

this! haha. Ladies Emergency Tool Kit.

thats her with her....emergency tool kit. HAHAHHA

a vibrator! WTF! and its not expensive to buy these here. we all cant stop laughing. damn, cheebai, fuck. this is disgusting. i cant understand who invented this, and why did he/she invented this device!

and then.....

hahaha nothing bad and dirty lah! its the "Tang Yuen" day again! i didnt realise until i read Kelly's blog and..whoo...its the time of the year again....but this time, without my mommy and ee ee aka Elizabeth Chuah Yook Kim. hahaha! so,

we all make 'tang yuen' together. it was so much fun. as in, the part which is so fun because i wasnt doing anything but taking pictures.

yes please, its my camera i must be in the picture okay!

all the rice balls. i dont know what u call them lah. but felt like home that night...

and these people, which are not available to date anymore, are trying their very best to make the tang yuen as round and pretteee as possible because they want to be a good wife/daughter-in-law whatever. wtf.

so after all the kacao and laughs and chit chat all night while making the ball ball...
done! so many of them...lol

and Elaine Tan added extra ginger in the soup...it tasted SO GOOD! warm me up inside out. upside down.

so, i still get a bit of home here in Oxford and its snowing out there right now :) u tell me whats better than this? (i know lah i know lot are better than this lah! just saying it lah!)

the end.

post exams syndrome

2009-12-22T02:28:00.004+08:00

NO i am not ill. i am very much alive and healthy. though i am very sad Brittany Murphy is dead now. wtf.

anyways, Jeannie woke me up that morning asking me look out my window...and i knew for that second, its snowing...

the view from my window.. my first time watching real snow before my eyes!

but it vanished just hours after....and we never catched snow again ever since....
so, we all gathered up and made lunch together! my ta pao foods from Xi'an was yummy yumms!

well the one above was Elaine frying our lunch and this is her "stuffs". all frozen foods. -.~" LOL

Fish is in the "Chicken department" they said. she is in charge of the chickens...

Oh, u must have thought i have no donation didnt u? U ARE WRONG!!! i brought over my Ta Pao foods frm Xi'an ok!!!??? DAMN NICE ok? General Tso's chicken! hahahha.
thats Elaine's masterpiece! fried everything with glass noodle! lol! its nice its nice! ;)

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today,

we decided to go out SHOPPING!!! u can never imagined the thrilled in me for i am spending my own earnings on my own stuffs!!! bahahahaha!!!

thats me, Wei Sin, Josephine while waiting for Elaine Chai to show up.

ah! thats Elaine Chai.

well, NAH Mommy! these are the pictures of me lately, wrapped up thich thick in those cloths, scarf, thermal wear, thermal socks, gloves..etc.. so sibeh very thick! i never used to wear so thick back in Malaysia before loh!

we had our lunch today in Nando's in the city.

and also we need to camwhore abit in Oxford's Nando's while waiting for food, because i am like that! cannot???

and u better dont say that im bias, but, seriously, Nando's here are really yummier than those i used to have in Malaysia. (and well, i only had Nando's in malaysia for ONCE in my life only) haha. its really nice, or maybe i was really hungry i dont care and it doesnt matter lah! wtf.

and, we moved on to do what we planned to do...SHOPPING. in the COLD! SHITNITSSSS it was really cold!!! we were all freezing while shopping! i have to thank Guan Yin Ma because i think she answers my prayers after i came UK. i received an sms from Brandon and he told me he bought the tickets for the theater show in London already! guess what?

Hairspray!!!!and its the theatre version! not the John Travolta one! lol

and its a gift from Brandon! omg! u say i lucky anot? u say if its not Guan Yin Ma then who? haha! owh of course thanks Brandon! he is a wonderwall.

after changing the Euros we headed home...u know, as i have always mention, we always use what 'God gave us' here in Oxford. eventho we reached our stop we still need to walk 800m to our hall...and then...

IT SNOW!!!!!!

we quickly took out our cameras and snap snap snap!!!
snap 1

snap 2

can you see the snow???? it wasnt heavy though.. small small only. LOL. unlike those snow stormy type in London and Birmingham. Oxford is....snowless... cheh.

ok we stopped after just taking few pictures because all the ang mohs literally like running home cause too cold and we Malaysians like sakai taking pics in the cold. so we so pai seh and keep the cameras away and continue walking home...

i am most contented. i bought a pair of boots because its really necessary and the floor so slippery!! and then i bought hair streightener because my old one exploded the other day. yes. and i am happy with my purchases..

sorry mommy! didnt buy anything for brothers and all the aunties aunties YET. slowly slowly.

here i go check on my porridge its done in the microwave already.

bye bye

whats next?

2009-12-20T10:16:00.005+08:00

exams are FINISHED! we all shout hurrays once the invigilator said "please put down your pen and stop writting." OMG i felt like 100000000tons of heavy rocks on my shoulder are all relieved. because this meant that i am done with this semester! this is so fast!

so, exams are done. whats next? as i flipped through my planner, i notice i have plenty of plans and activities waiting for me to do during my holidays!

1)Now?well of course, exams are over, i had been locked up in Clive Booth for ages i think i need to go out to the city and do some shopping. shop shop see see is not too bad. :)

2)Christmas?Swindon!!!

i'm spending my entire Christmas in Swindon with a local host family. and i can't wait.
ps// oh well sorry for the picture but thats what it came out when i typed "Swindon" in google search. =.~"

3)New Year?

London!

i'll be visitng London and spend my new year eve with Brandon this time! Since Jeannie has got her Arsenal football match to watch, Brandon said he'll bring me countdown and watch fireworks in London eye or something. well maybe Piccadelis Circle i dont know lah!

and apart from that, haha i have to admit Brandon is a really nice friend and a very good tour guide in London.. he planned all the activities for me to do while my stay in London...like...
a visit to Madame Tussaud's wax museum to see those celebrities - wax version! lol

and also,
to watch theatre show in one of the theatre in London! how nice of him because i told him i really want to watch one!

and then............here comes the best part of my holiday....

4)Dublin in January!!!!!!!

why Dublin? because of her....

Bernice Lim Pei Yi

haha! she is awesome lah! she planned everything already for my visit to Dublin. she even emailed me the whole run down plan thing for the whole entire time im in Dublin. and then, we planned to go Sligo (which i dont know where it is but i know its Europe...wtf!) and do some holidayvisiting each other thing lah! i bought tickets like AGES AGO ALREADY OKAY BERNICE!!!! ryan air rocks sometimes! and i need to buy some euros already. before i spend all the pounds off.. :P

and i'm done! eh not quite a long holiday ok!?!? u expect me travel the whole entire europe meh!? cheh!

owh did i mention before the most precious people i met in UK? ok they are not ang mohs okay! they are Malaysians!

Jeannie Chong!

she's the best omg. not only because she gave me rice and eggs today, but she is simply the most awesome friend i met so far! in uk.... eh Jeannie i still rock more than you! and i am working in the same place at the same bar with her! we even broke glasses together! hahahaha! and she's going to Abu Dhabi tomorrow afternoon. safe trip babe...

and she is the most crazy person i ever met so far also lah! seriously! like..seriously!!! she can laugh VERY VERY HARD at my jokes u know? and i meant REALLY REALLY HARD! and working with her in the bar is awesome! teach me make more alchoholic drinks pleeeeeaaseee? LOL

nah! thats us! in KuKuiiiii. some random clubbing night!
**mommy!!! i didnt get drunk at all!!! eventhough i had alot of shots! hahahaha! wtf!

and then, there's Min Yuen. she's awesome also. sometimes i think she rocks more than Jeannie because she never asked me to go away like Jeannie did! hhahahahah!!! well she is so nice where she can come Oxford FOR MY BRITHDAY! FOR ME!!!

and now, i know, and i think, i am the most lucky person in MY world. HAHAH! no seriously. i work here and i got paid (of course, duh!) and my whole bunch of colleagues and my bosses are all SUPER FRIENDLY PEOPLE!!! and we're going to have Chritmas dinner next week and Karaoke after that! ARE YOU JEALOUS? hahahhahahahahahaha!!!!! cannot take it anymore i'm just too happy! Holiday here i come!!!

Oh i forgot to mention also, my Ballroom and Latin coach are super AWESOMENESS people! friendly and nevertheless, they remember me! like really remember me! HAHAHHAHA. ok. i got to go eat my garlic bread now.

bye bye

one more paper.

2009-12-17T23:02:00.002+08:00

European Eunion Law
18 Dec 2009
1330 - 1530

after this final paper, i'm done with this semester. exams tomorrow and im surfing amazon.co.uk. FML

Finals

2009-12-15T23:56:00.003+08:00

one paper on Wednesday evening. Criminal Evidence.
1700 - 1900.

hope that my hard work pays off!

looking forward..

2009-12-12T09:38:00.010+08:00

there are still hopes for me although it is winter time now. all trees are bald, sky darks at 3pm everyday. but theres still no doomsday for me! hahaha! my life is full of love and passion. i am just so lucky lah! you dont be jealous of me!

i have great and lovely family. didnt complain that i was annoying although i kept bothering them to keep an eye on my dog! haha
i have lovely friends, and one of them is Burton. why so?...
i found this note in the breakfast box he gave me.
the breakfast! he made me this because i was going to compete that morning! how lovely! are you jealous?!?!?! u have friends stay up whole night to make breakfast for u the next day? HAHAHHA!!!!!
i have great dancing life in oxford as well. (ps// i miss competing with Neil around. lol)oh with Bruce also lah! cause this is ballroom.
he might not be hansem but partnering with Cedric is one of the smartest things i've done!and we won several times okay! in latin only. hahaha! FML 3rd place no trophy no nothing!
and i have love from home!
my long awaited parcel had arrived yesterday. JEALOUS or not even the parcelman was lovely enough to carry this thing to my room for me! hahahaha!
well thats the huge ass 12kg parcel and i! i was overjoyed okay!haha! u know whats that?

a lovely cusion pillow in deep maroon colour!

also a thermal flusk! oh thanks mommy i really need it for my midnight studies in the winter.

ah mommy even packed this lovely purple/blue/whatevercolour scaft in!!!! LOVES!!LOVES!!!LOVES!!!!

brother got me these! my favourite PC game and my favourite movie!

and a bunch of everything!!!!! can u see!!! can u see the chilli sauce? HAHAHAH! mommy can u send JonJon oveer next time? aiyooo~

from this moment on, i am the largest Cintan supplier in Oxford!i reckon. haha

and staying outside, ur room will stink because ur socks, underwear, boots, whatnots...etc..

so,

mommy sent me this! air freshener!
*haha sorry because i was rushing to work so i wore the lovely scarf and cam whore with this thing.

now thisthing is plugged into my wall. my room smells so good okayyy!!!!!

and then, i went to work. i LOVE TO WORK lah! omg!!!!
well, after work, after dinner, after everything, before bathing, i whore my cam! hahahah therefore i took so many pics! with my pathetic all black stupid working outfit but i still look cool in it because i am cool like that!

ok done. off to study! bye bye

FML I LOVE MY LIFE! wtf! hahahah! Christmas is coming...HoHoHo!

dream a little dream

2009-12-10T06:20:00.002+08:00

not a little dream in fact a freaky one!

i think its because i had lack of sleeps lately due to the commercial law assignment, i had dreams!

i know! i know! dreamings are like eating rice. nothing to be frustated. i know right. but ITS SO VERY FREAKY OKAY WHEN U DREAM OF THE SAME PERSON OVER AND OVER AGAIN FOR 3 NIGHT CONSECUTIVELY!

you tell me scary not? disgusting not?

but anyway, he's not dead. still very much alive and healthy. HAHAHAH! i think i kind of kill him in my dream. wtf. anyway, are you doing good?

lol. dream a little dream. why cant i just dream of myself winning Nottingham Games! $#@$^%$ greedy huh.

the end.

jitterbug

2009-12-08T12:07:00.004+08:00

i am like a drunken jitterbug now wanting to Jive so badly.

another 2 more weeks and i'm done with this semester in Oxford. it's not as enjoyable as you tought it is ok? so currently, well, i had always been in financial trouble, therefore, I am engaging in a part time job every weekends lately.
a chinese restaurant as per see. working hard, wiping those plates really hard to earn those monies... iam in full hope of getting mommy and daddy something.

i am in the midst of completing the freaking psycho Commercial Law assignment which everyone claimed to be the POWERFUL JEFF YOUNG EVILNESS. anyways, i had came to few focus in my life currently.. what an inspiration huh.

of course, money! did you realise its in pounds? LOL. so long of studying those notes, i finally can recognize all of them! and now, i want more of them. wtf.

ok actually whats in my mind now besides those, are...

1) Christmas! i wonder how is it going to be like here in ang moh country. well, sorry if im in Malaysia it'd probably be another excuse for me to go clubbing. RIGHT? RIGHT? right not!

2) the competition dancefloor. haha. i am of no place to claim that i am a good dancer, but i miss competing already! that'd be in February 26th 2010. -.~"

3) and of no ambiguity, i want something studed/etched on this position. which, most likely to be withdrawn from my idea. i think i am quite satisfy with what i have now... well, Nancy said it right, you have a lifetime to decide! there you go.

4) i was recently inspired to join this pro bono thing which i think will help in my, erm, every espects. hopefully. hopefully..

i should be so lucky now already. and how come i am still worry of every little thing now? i am most unsatisfy with my financial planning lately which is very very messy. i am more worry with my recent progress of Commercial Law assignment. MASSIVE worry on my understanding of EU Law. MASSIVE worry on my legs action in Cha Cha cause Neil said it wasn't fast enough. how sad for a lucky girl to be thrown under such worries? therefore, i decided to call it off now because once again, i felt the uselessness here typing all these. *^$!@*#%$!#!@

the end.

i am very random

2009-12-04T20:54:00.004+08:00

yes. i am very random, therefore this will be a random post about just anything random. anything that pops up in my mind.

well i decided to write this post because i have 20 minutes spare time of dont know what to do because i am waiting for my pastry to be cooked, in the oven. hahahha. im so hungry lah.

time really past so quickly, this is the first time i feel like time past really fast, and i cant even do anything about. well obviously, nobody can. the thing is its so fast where it feels like its just a flash! i've been here for 3 months already and yet i felt like i'm here since..yesterday. well ok thats very dramatic but thats how i want to deliver. you get what i want to say right?

i gained weight. yes! i havent weight myself yet but i know i gained weight! but u know sometimes, when i am hungry i feel so skinny, then i just cant stop eating. i am poor because i keep eating i supposed.

owh i think my face is getting LARGER THAN LIFE. because my dance partner told me that he saw my "BIG FAT FACE" smilling to the camera when we were dancing. HEY AT LEAST I GOT US INTO 2nd PLACE OKAY! wtf! Singaporean!
see! actually quite big fat lah my face! eh i smiled to the camera! hahahhha!!! its likenatural instinct okay! and WTF he is so disgusting and his hands are like superman! $@$@#!% and my eye makeup are like fucks.

oh and, i think the team photographer hates me. because he never took our picture FROM MY FRONT SIDE. SERIOUSLY. let me show you..
this was when we did latin. from my BACK! and Cedric always did that face! geli!

this was when we did ballroom. cannot remember Waltz ot Quickstep. SEE!!!! my BACK again!!!!! wtf right? and look at Cedric's face? HAHAHHA! cannot tahan lah he very geli! Singaporean. and he complaint that i very bias towards Singaporean.

u know what he said about Malaysia whenever we quarrelled? i really want to throw my heels towards him. he asked me go back to my 'developing country' ! WTF!!!!!! CHEEBYE! JIAK SAI lah u Singaporean!

sigh! but i admire my own legs in the pictures above. hahahha vainity rules.

ok u know what? i'm going to blog something very very constructive in the NEXT post because now my pastry is cooked or else im gonna have to burn the kitchen! ok then

the end.

2009-12-01T07:22:00.002+08:00

i am in the midst of doing my criminal evidence coursework and i am stucked. really never expected myself to be in this position which is so subtle to give up.

i am extremely discourage by my current mood as mood swings really does happen to me lately. having done 2 competitions lately and being exhausted, i am most likely to collapse. anyway for the first time i am stucked half way typing out my aasignment. what a shame, i can't even produce one decent paragraph. this is the outcome of failure in planning earlier. I can't afford to fail lah! wtf!

as i was feeling extremely discouraged and abandoned, as i was taking a nap, i received a sms from daddy asking hows my life! such a bright encouragement to my mood. its 1 degree celcious now WTF is sooooo SOOOO SOOOO cold my fingers are freezing now. feel like i am the saddest person in the world because im so cold. wtf!

i ate one packet of nissin noodle (thank you Yung Yung Jai) and a whole personal peperoni pizza! FML im going to be SO fat because both my limited edition Levis jeans doesnt fit me anymore! mommy asked me stop eating or else ended up changing the whole wardrobe, AHAHAHHAHA its a good thing!

i am typing this post because i am really stucked halfway doing Criminal Evidence so please bare with my randomness. i feel like blinging up my camera, pimping my BB skin, eating apple crumble, drinking hot chocolate, eating my home-made burgers, nasi lemak, pan mee, fried chicken, curry, Subway sandwiches, hot chicken soup..etc.

and i want to continue my Criminal Evidence now. WTF!!! i want to swear out loud but cannot because Bee Hui is just next door WTF. my life is so sad! hahahahhaha omg im so pessimist!

i should take out my planner and Blackberry, because if you fail to plan, you plan to fail..

pathetic

2009-12-01T00:35:00.003+08:00

i came across stories and gossips among my classmates here in OBU. its between this queen and this prince. its the i-like-you ended up i-hate-you thing. sounds rediculous to most of us. to be honest, its kinda sad when i heard that. why so, simply because this whole entire thing reminds me of this sad incident just few months back right before i come to Oxford..

its so sad having yourself falling for someone who turns out to hate you the most. its really funny when this someone hated you so much where he won't even want to look at you, or to not appear in any occassion where you are at. on top of the wound, maybe he say something really mean like, "blah blahh blahhh is so fucking ulgy" or "so stupid" aiyah things thats going to hurt like that. so i just concluded it into one word ya, PATHETIC.

and so, it has past for about, so many months, i think she lost count. i think he lost count too. i just sat down in front of my computer thinking, why 2 person who used to be quite close, ended up hating each other and saying mean things towards each other. none of them wants to lose. none of them wants to admit the fault. why cant one just simply apologize, and another one just forgive? *oh well, maybe one has already apologize but why doesn't the other one forgive?*

remember all the phone calls and laughters. omg it can really made people laugh even if its so long ago. it had happened. like a fleeting film. well at least she once knew him. one of a kind.

no one wants to lose. both hated each other. both talking crap about each other. both knew that it used to be something quite wonderful. but both know, they will never talked to each other anymore. funniest thing? she/he might be still thinking of he/she.

what a beautiful life. without regrets, life is not as beautiful.

forgive and forget. can you even do it?

thanks giving

2009-11-27T23:34:00.003+08:00

i heard it was thanks giving yesterday. i never had celebrated thanks giving and never knew what it was. until i heard and reading through blog posts, it is a festive which has nothing to do with christianity.

since its the thanks giving weather, this post is specially dedicated to people i love so much and i wish to thank them. is that what thanks giving means? haha. anyway, to the people i love most,
thats them. awww right? haha. well my family actually. i love them equally much. many many loves where i never knew i had until they threw me here alone and i am now living without them. sigh* humans are such suckers. i mean generally. not you, you, you or you. but generally. i bet you ever heard of "people never appreciated until you lost it". i opposed to that because i havent lost anything and i am appreciating all of them. every single minute i am breathing, i am thankful.

i love my mom the most because she is everything beyond the best mom. gahh i miss her like mad, i love her like mad but too bad i am a conservative asian which only reach the ability to tell her i love her through words and blog posts...

i love my dad because he is simply my dad...

i love my brothers because they are simply the best brothers in the world. eventhough they were like hooligans at times. hahaha

and ee ee. it means aunty in mandarin..

she is the most unique aunty in the world lah! u will never believed how she treated me! she is the best i tell you! she can cook for me whenever i said i am hungry. she will bake for me when i randomly say i want to bake because i want to bake. we talked like we were friends and she does everything so lovely way beyond an aunt will do to you.. how can i not love her?

ee ee i love you also lah! i will never forget you okay! haha

i am most thankful and i reckon thanks giving is the best day to show how much i feel thankful of. i reckon, there is no one as blissful as i am.

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so, thanks giving is over, today is another day for me. which is a day closer to competition, a day closer to Criminal Evidence coursework due date -.-"

i got a phone call few days ago from this dude who sounded really friendly who asked me to go for an interview. for a cantonese recorded speaker. hahaha! i think faced applied for it and i got the chance to be interiewed..
first time i step foot in a very proper and big recording studio and after severals question and answer sessions he made me sat in a little room with mic and scripts, and he recorded me reading those very complicated chinese characters into cantonese... it was my first time...i stumbled @.@"

it was brief. 20 minutes perhaps? just a short test he just want to know how my voice goes and how does it sound. he said he wants native accent which hong kong-er would approved of. haha i hope years and years of TVB indulgence would help in this one! *crossed fingers*

having walking out alot, lately, i find weather is getting colder...i checked, its only 7 degrees out there. celcius.
as i walked towards Jeannie's house in Headington, i felt the chill. it was so cold and the sun is still shining so bright. SO DECEIVING! anyways, the trees are all bald.

compare to how it was when we first came, i finally came to realise, winter has arrived...wtf. no winter sonata also! winter not nice lah!
and thats me today. hence that puffy eye bags because i slept at 3am last night thanks to TVB! haha

and thats Jeannie today. she made me pastry for lunch and we walked to Headington for beehoon. and we bumped into the super hot matured-looking guy which i really crazy after, whom i actually met days ago in the bus stop realising that he stays in Headington also, on the road. omg! this is fate! wtf! hahahha!!! eh he looks like the very young version of Kent's father. how sick i am! hahahah!!!

anyway, i am off to assignments now because i am very worried about it now. bye bye.

the end.

i am discouraged

2009-11-27T07:19:00.005+08:00

all hail Oxford Dancesport Team. thats our whole team. see how much people Bruce sent out this year. =.=" so kiasu. well i looking forward to the coming comp.

I'm going to say this once more. I am discouraged.

for the very reason i am here (well eventhough its just the 3rd month here), i feel all discouraged today. Budgetting is definitely a hard thing but i reckon i did pretty well in that where I hardly spend and I rarely shop for uneccessary purchases.

I have to admit the fact that i spend quite an amount of money but, the fact is, i spend alot of them on foods! no seriously! foods are the most expensive thing! i eat and eat and i gained weight to the extent where my favourite limited edition Levis jeans couldnt fit me anymore! as in NOT ANYMORE! i couldnt even button it up! no matter how i suck my tummy in! i am most happy actually, but looking at those jeans that i have to abandone them from now on, i am quite sad.

oh well, thats not the discouraging part i was going to say. apart from the weather here, its getting colder every single day and i could barely walk out without shivering. i am so cold like that! money is definitely one of the issues that bothers me. I would say i am not a spender when it comes to circumstances like where i have to manage a huge sum of money for a very long time. i did i have to say. and i've definitely got enough Kaching$ to use for the rest of the month.

now enough of the money issue. to be honest, i was most upset when i received the message questioning my attitude in spending. i have to say, if i were to spend money, i am extravagant in that. but if i were to plan and save, I AM WAYYYY BEYOND EXTRAVANGANT. all back to what i was about to point, i am upset now and tomorow, and the day after tomorrow and perhaps daysss daysss after tomorrow. (well unless i met someone hot and he blew me a hot kiss. WTF!)

with due dates approaching me, mid night studies, competition trainings (WITH RESONABLE AMOUNT OF TIME SPENT ON), and well occasionally movies and series...i am quite stressed actually. oh no! not stressed. i am worried. for whatever reasons you can think of. GAHH! i dont know what am i typing now...

so, i'm going to another competition this Saturday. Nottingham Ballroom Dancing Championships. Bruce (Ballroom coach) and Neil (latin coach) definitely gave me some pressure for i dont know why.and for a very kiasu heart deep down under, I definitely hope that i can do better than what i did last week...and according to Claire..one of my classmates in the dance class... Neil looked..scary when Cedric and I was on the dance floor..
the 2nd from the left..thats Neil. my latin coach. he definitely looked intensed didnt he? anyway he is cool and great, but he pressured me!

i dont know why of all people he has to just come tell me he want me to get into finals lor!!!! damn pressured okay! mommy daddy said my spending attitude got problem now he want to push me. OMG i want to cry! cannot also lah too cold the tears will freeze! but oh well, being positive is what i have learnt so far. dancing wise i am still very much alive.

so, i am sad and pathetic because my parents practically accused me on unreasonable spending on money and time. there's nothing to explain this is not like im being dump or what. i just want to type it all out so i guess i am feeling better now.

i am going to get my Criminal Evidence done now and finish the series i watched haflway earlier.

the end.

fuck. i swore because i am pissed.

Warwick

2009-11-24T12:22:00.008+08:00

hello, my name is Cindy Wong and i currently looked like that!
ok i know its not too bad BUT my hair is too long!

anyway, I made it to the beginner's team and got my routine 2 and a half weeks ago, and confirmed whose my partner about, 2 weeks ago! how crazy is that! is that how ang mohs do things?
I went Warwick just yesterday morning. Sunday. Yes, i was sick.. soar throat, headache, flu....and i got to wake up 530 in the morning and walked to the bus stop freezing cold. hahaha! very much sounds like im having such a sad life.

anyway, Warwick is the 1st competition for Oxford University Team in this sem. and my 1st one. so I was a little bit nervous. its nothing like Joyclub Dance Parties. because its full of ang mohs and english speaking chau BBC. hahahaha. got friendly ones also la actually.

1 hour and 40 minutes and we reached the Ballroom Banquet in Birmingham. Oxford sent such a huge team! Bruce(aka Oxford Dancesport Coach) is so kiasu leh! hahahaha! and as we thought Cambridge will be our main 'enemy', this time they didn't sent many. so I dont know lah! ahhaha! We thought it was competition between Oxford and Cambridge...little did I know there are Bristol, Cardiff, Birmingham, Manchester, and some others i can't remember leh!

haha! my bestfriends in the team and they are both from China. eh the guy quite cute right but he's only 20. cheh. hahaha

well wem, you know ballroom dancing is always like that. there will be standard and latin. and we have to take both. so I did both. under circumstance that I wasnt expecting anything and i suck in Waltz and shitty in timing for Quickstep...i got into semi finals only....sorry Bruce eventhough he said he likes me -.-"

it was such a long day and I never thougt i had to dance that many times as they are call backs. My catagory alone has 10 heats to start with! crazy ah! my stamina like shit okay!

munching only sandwich and several energy bars for the whole entire day, I was restless, tired, encious, sleepy, and definitely not positive..and i have to danced Cha Cha and Jive for like 10 thousands times! hahaha. no la but I really can't remember how many times we were called back. haha! Magic number! I was number 66 because my Singaporean kiasu partner's name starts with C. wtf!
so we always ended up in heat 1! WTF!!!

erm, i think thats Jive because i can see Julia and Aaron besides us. we only see them in finals. so its Jive lah!

ok lah thats a Jive also. OMG wheres my cha cha pictures!!?!?!? confirm Aaron too lame in taking pictures lah! wtf! mmmmm...Neil (aka Latin Coach) said I did great. HAHAHHAHAH! he likes to blink at me lah i so pai seh. hahahaha.

well, while waiting for another callback, we can sit back and watch the ametuers and advanced dancers compete also...thats my favourite part actually! HAHAHA.
and thats Melvin and his partner. and Melvin is my senior from main team. ok la so we all newbies has to have one people senior thing from main team and we should deal with them for any problem. so Melvin was mine. and he is quite cute hor? and charming also leh! omg i cannot stop looking at him lo. although his tan was too dark and a little bit too over. HAHAHAHA! we all gossip about his tan whole night actually. HAHAHAH. eh, but hor, his Rhumba and Samba was so good leh. OMG i was facinated lah. and then hor, his Waltz and Tango was great also! OMG! hahahahha. and then hor, his latin posture was so nice also! OMG not gay at all! who says latin dancers are gay?? want to fight now arh!

and thats my favourite dancers on floor! the orange one u can see anot? hahhaa! Oxford couple also leh! she was gorgeous and her partner was...ooooh! i cannot take his heat! so hot! and they are Advanced couple...and they won the latin! i show u later! hahahah

well, the best part for the night is, performances....by the UK national champions ballroom couple. and they made 3rd place for the UK ballroom championship thing for UK..i think 2nd and 1st place should be from places like Russia, or Hungary, or maybe Italy, or I dont know lah.

Richard & Morgan

Waltz. they travelled accross the dance floor like flying.. and their Quickstep was facinating. their legs were like machines!

and they did latin too!!!
Rumba.
i annot believe i caught this shot!! this is SOOOO NICE!

I wish i can Jive like them...

well, long awaited moments. prize presentation. EH VERY SCARY OKAY!

ok i was out in Ballroom Standard part so I didnt bother to take any pictures when they present the prize lah. hahahaha! and then there's Latin.

5 teams made it to the finals and my number wasn't called untill...

the 2nd place...
and well, this picture was taken when the champion is receiving their trophy. haha.

nah! thats the champion for Latin besides me. Cina girl and a Black guy. damn! they are good! and they are from Bristol!

well, Neil was happy because i made it to 2nd place for Oxford!

winners for Ballroom Advance. 4 out of 5 were from Oxford Team as well!

winners for Advanced Latin. dont know why they got like 6 couples in the finals. ah maybe theres verylittle advanced couples lah! hahhaha. EH!!!! 5 out of 6 was from Oxford too! and all 5 of them are TOP 5 okayy! not bad huh! Neil was delighted!

and there you go...my virgin competition..to Warick. lol. tired, cold, penniless, sleepy, sick...but with a little bit of glory...
i slept quite well, in aching muscles and running nose..

all hail the Oxford Dancesport Team. =.=

the end...

ps:// i'm having another one in Nottingham this Saturday. this time Cambridge will send the whole kandang! Bruce is going to be furious!

i'm old..

2009-11-19T01:06:00.016+08:00

haha YES. its the magical day of the year again. but this year its slightly different. very much different in fact. it's my birthday on the 18th and i just turned 21. as i thought I would be alone wishing Happy 21st Birthday to myself alone in my room this year, i have to admit this is the most unexpected and the happiest birthday i had so far.

i never expected everyone would made such efforts for me. let me show you...

ok this wasn't a gift for my birthday but i assumed so because it was so nice. Daniel made this incredible Unagi and he also fried minced meat for me for dinner when i was starving one night. ;)

and the amazing thing was, i blew 3 cakes this year!!! how awesome!

#1 Cheesecake from WeiSin, NeeYaa, Fish, Elaine, Joshephine just one night before 18th Nov. thank you guys!!! and the candle was the sparkling ones!

Neeyaa even bought me these 2 cute cupcakes from M&S. how thoughtful..

PS// u must forgive how i looked here because it was a surprise and i was trying on my hair for the coming competition! i never had surprises before!! THANKS LAH!

#2 Baileys ice-cream cake from Burton, Hoong Loong, TzeYang, Hooi Thien, Bee Hui and also Yi Ling.

haha! this is funny as well. i must say this is a pleasant surprise. i was speechless for the effort you all put in. well, despite the fact that i walked in the kitchen in the midst of them preparing. and got threw out of the kitchen by Burton...it was still a surprise! thanks!

#3 and this lovely cake was from Jeannie and MinYuen. so pretteee rightt???

so, what have i done on my 21st birthday? it had completely gone out of my expectation. to be honest i almost forgot about this magical day because assignments are pilling up, and also crazy training practices! ALMOST i'd say.

well, i have to say there is nothing more than words from people around you the moment you open your eyes. on the 18th November 2009, i'm in Oxford, inside my own room, barely awake, turned on Facebook, and i saw 101notifications!
they all are birthday wishes!! from basically EVERYONE! well, a good start of the day ain't it? lol

also, I got Daddy's text message while i was in the cafe, wishing me Happy 21st Birthday! and Daddy&Mommy had gave me the BEST birthday present one could ever imagine. and i'm not telling ya'll! hahahah

I, had splurge a little on myself for the sake of me turning 21 and is legal to go casino, go watch porn, go clubbing, go have sex...etc.... wtf. therefore, i bought myself this....
as i had craved for quite awhile, and the previous phone was dead.

At night, Min Yuen purposely came down to Oxford from London for me! and we went dinner together...
not so yummy dishes but everything else was perfect. we had our dinner in bella Italia.

well, while i thought the rest in Malaysia had forgotten my birthday, Alwi called and my meal in Bella Italia was a gift from him! thanks Alwi.

oh well, this is a random picture because Jeannie and I were so proud of having the same blackberry phone. and we had them protected! haha

the girls that made my night flawless..
Ops! and of course Alif too.. :) thank you mate.

Jeannie and her bf Wen Long got me this...

these....are fantastic! crazy funny messages on the bottle! and its just what i wanted!

shower gel, because i am poor and dont want to buy.
Lip balm, because mine is finishing and i am poor again, dont want to buy one.
Eye Gel, oh i alwyas want one but also, i dont want to buy it because i'm poor.
Body Moisturiser, i assume its body lotion. its cute! eventhough i have tons of body lotion here already. hahahha

Jeannie wants a drinking night in my kitchen. So,
she bought Scnapps! well we did shots!

and then Roxanne and Deeviah brought the crowd and some booze...haha
from Left to Right.. Ah Seng aka William, Deeviah, Italain, Sri Lankan, French. multi cultural night.

Achut bought me this for my birthday! Whiskey and Ferrero Rocher! many thanks! i swear he is the most friendly person here.

and of course the birthday song singing session... aww look at elaine chai. haha

mmm. dont know why i looked so intense...
again, they handed me this parang knife to cut such an innocent looking cake. haha
made 3 wishes and then blow the candles.

win comps
be rich
be rich

hahahah! joking laaaaaa~

i told them i was meant to get an A! ok it was an "A" on the Purple star shapped candle okayy..

we had so much fun till i dont know why Elaine and I laughed so hard in these pictures..???
still dont know why.

and then, Ah Seng and Deeviah came attacked me from behind....for the very reason they're here.....

-.~"

and then, we called it a night. My 21st birthday, and i celebrated it in Oxford..

looking at the calender and counting days of getting all these done, i still have pretty long way to get there. anyhow, time past so quickly where its just like yesterday where i still clearly remember how i celebrated my birthday last year.. i was 20. and i had greatest times as well.

i am a blessed child. nothing more to complain and i really couldn't ask for more. so much had happened and it was like flashes of films. and now, i still couldn't believe that i am here all alone by myself. In Oxford doing what i always want to do.

deep down, still, i am still daddy's girl where home is where i always want to be. i'll go home. i'll be home. i miss home. garrhh, i hope all these is done and i'm on the plane flying home.

and now, i turned 21. older, and i hope wiser.

a peaceful mind generates power

2009-11-08T06:14:00.007+08:00

ok i miss Elaine Chai eventhough she is just a floor below me now, and she just went back to her room 10 minutes ago. hahaha! its always nice to gossip with her.

OK so, besides being broke and surviving with dead phone, i am literally under pressure now.

i look exactly like how this guy is right now. stressing head out and worrying nuts in front of my lap top. Never in mylife i had encounter this unpleasant feelings. a mixture of everything.

my Legal Method assignment is due in 2 weeks time and i have just only started it.
after this Legal shitass assignment, my huge ass Comercial Law assignment is due soon after..
and then after this huge ass Comercial assignment, my freaking psychodelic Criminal Evidence assignment is due!
on top of everything my competition is in 3 weeks time and my cha-cha and Waltz techniques are like fucks. wtf i wanna win.

so, back in Malaysia i can go to temple. because i go temple very often until Guan Yin Ma also recognizes me. BUT NOW? i think Guan Yin Ma dont travel to UK often lor!
i miss Thean hou Temple! u know i always drive there every weekend? to pray pray bless me everything "soon soon li li" (smooth)!!

and then,
i also miss her. because i use to talk to her quite often when i visit the temple. Now that im in Oxford and Guan Yin Ma and Thean Hou are not here, Mother Mary i bet she dont know me and i never had visited her before. i am worrying nuts on my chair now. looking at the black and white papers and my dictionary. i am about to explode.

i think i shall do what i did best..

meditates. i need wisdom, calm, and passion for now.

perhaps i should practise for chakra or some zen and feng shui art to put my mind at peace. Because, a peaceful mind generates power.

the end.

a little updates!

2009-11-06T21:18:00.005+08:00

as my parents does view my blog occasionally, i think i shall do an update post on my recent life in oxford.

i have several ups and DOWNS (WTF!!) lately. and those are pretty interesting..

#1 its an 'ups'
went to MinYuen's place in London to cook curry for dinner!

and then make pan cake for breakfast the next day! RISE & SHINE!

and nevertheless i ate my pancakes on a chopping board because im poor and im broke. wtf. couldnt even afford a plate in London. haha. EH LONDON EVERYTHING VERY EXPENSIVE OKAY!

and moving on..

#2 i had discovered the cupcakery in London while shopping with Jeannie!
the Elle Bakery which i saw it online!!! and their cupcakes shine!!! cool anot now u tell me!

#3 i went to Halloween as...whatever i was.. and had a blast!
with Freddie Krueger. =.="

#4 went Kukuii on week 6's Wednesday because we dont have class the next day.
and don't know why Jeannie's cozy house was as cold as the freezer that night, we decided to have what we already planned earlier...hehe
of course! hot chocolate....
and Apple Crumble! thats us "yam cha" in UK style! now who say i can't carry on my yam-cha culture in UK? im not called a queen of yam cha for nothing okay!!!! HAHA

and lastly..

#5 i am partnered up! by Bruce! lol. We strived in front of Bruce and he like the idea of me dancing with my partner! LOL. ps// he said i was amazing. HAHAHHHA!!!!! i damn happy okay! u better congratulate me than bitching bout me showing off i tell u!

ok this is not me of course. but this picture is here because i want to say that i'm competiting in both standard and lain ballroom!

and well.
its even icing on top of the cupcake if i were to have this costume~~ hahaha! PURPLE. then i can lost without being sad also! LOL

ALSO, my partner is a Singaporean, who looks like Mr Ken (my former KDU lecturer who failed my Equity), who is doing Zoology in Oxford University, who is doing his field work particularly on 'Kampung Chicken' [AND HE DARE TO ASK ME WHERE I FOUND THOSE IF I WAS IN MALAYSIA. wtf! kampung lah! PASAR PAGI(morning market) lah!!!], and also he is very kiasu because he is a Singaporean. and i quite like to partner with him because i can bully him and hes not good looking, and i dont need to flirt with him and i dont need to act polite and soft and feminine because he is from Singapore! HAHAHAHA

well those are all the UPS i had encountered in Oxford lately thats worth to share with you guys..

and then, of course, life is not perfect, and its certainly not smooth in mine. so, i had several DOWNS i want to share as well because those are like really really downs!

#1
my purple bling sexy pretty cellphone, was dead! yesterday! its dead!!!!! its black out! and i cant use it anymore!!!!! ITS DEAD!!!!!

but then again, i guess god must have heard my prayers because i went to temples quite often back in Malaysia, 'Guan Yin Ma' po pi (bless) me with a great friend by the name of Daniel who was kind enough to lend me his extra super chunted cell phone! HAHA. but then...
as much as i love my PURPLE BLING BEDAZZLED cellphone, (since its dead now) i had set my eyes on this and im gonna check out the price asap! hahahhahaa!!!

YES, my 1st downs in Oxford was quite massive, 2nd one wont be any better because

#2 i am broke! wtf

and also,

#3 i had developed rashes on my forehead and around my lips. So, my life is crashing down now.

BUT I AM STILL ON TOP OF MY WORLD BECAUSE I AM SO COOL LIKE THAT.

and thats about it about me lately ;)

signed off!

not so spooky Halloween

2009-11-04T20:28:00.005+08:00

remember i said i want to look like Velma Kelly for my Halloween? yes, my first ever halloween and probably my last time dressing up also. LOL. but then again, i failed. because, ok let me show u and u'll know why i say this...

well. yes. instead of looking like a 1920s flapper, i turned out to be like...a pin up mourning lady.

and Rush was quite happening that night, besides the fact that the musics suck all night, everything else was fun. its an experience for me. lol

so many ghosts that night. that WEEk in fact. because daysss before actualy halloween night people started dressing up to clubs already. it was so cute and fun to look at.

and us, dressed up as well. obviously!

Elaine Chai. she was the punk corpse! she was such good actress!she skipped the smile all night! creepy!

my babe, Roxanne! she was the slutty school girl. HAHA. so slutty omg! i like! i like!

Alif, as Freddie Krueger. such good make up on didn't he? bravo baby handsome darling sexy honey.

Oh! this is classic. William aka Ah Seng. he was....a punched bloody face red shirt dude. HAHAHAH. he was supposed to be hugh hefner lah but we couldnt find him red robe. LOL

it was so cute because at one point Elaine Chai and i went bored and decided to play a game. HAHAHA. getting random people and take pictures with them. and below are our records... lol

#1 vampire. a cute one! LOL

#2 Elaine Chai with the, dont know what. THIS ONE IS SO FUNNY because i waved to him he cant see me!HAHAHHAHA!!!! omgness!!!

#3 with this scary masked dude. CHENG YEAW, this looks like yours aint it?

and then there's this crazy dude! he so crazy posed for me when i waved my camera towards him. haha

and then we can't discriminate even if its Halloween. because ghosts also got Gay ones okay. like this ones here. equity!

and also, when Flapper/Mourning Lady and Freddie Krueger collided..

u know what flapper means don't u? go goole it! then u know...
why i did this. HAHA. its halloween. therefore she doesn't care who she's hooking up with. HAHA. but this Freddie was too skinny lah Alif!

and also we had Deeviah in her devil ensemble. and us posing up for her.

and thats basically a gang of us. exclude the slutty school girl and punched face bloody dude ahSeng. OWH Achutan went as Kanye West! HAHAHAHHA

ok the end. wtf

imma suited up for halloween?

2009-10-29T08:45:00.002+08:00

so, a malaysian girl who has never celebrated the so fun festive of halloween.i am here now in the piece of land where people dress up for it. its a ONCE-A-YEAR thing. and what i'm gonna be?

i had decided. this came to my head once everyone decided to dress for halloween.
Velma Kelly. lets see the Malaysian, less sexy, shorter version of Velma. trick ot treat, people.

Birmingham, not because of Birmingham

2009-10-27T06:16:00.007+08:00

of planning such trip to a foreign state of UK is my first time, also my very spontaneous decision. "when are u coming Birmingham mmm?" and there i went click click, bought the tickets! everything are basically email online cyber space here. easy but i felt insecure. just like how much i hate online shopping. so, i packed my little things and off i went to the city centre and chase the bus. yes, i chased the bus. with what god gave me, in my high heel boots. talk about super hero girl. i felt so powerful.

pretty much doing everything alone, and i enjoy it, it was quite a windy day and i overestimated myself. ~
on the way. i was from Water Eaton heading towards Birmingham. very excited about what i'm going to see. but so worry because its a whole freaking 2 hours journey. =="well i peeked around the bus and found no one realise my existance, i took out my camera and whore-d my face out. LOL

well, yes. thats my boots that almost killed my feet but i still love it because it look good on me.

surprisingly, 2 hours wasn't long and there i arrived Birmingham. with a warm hug from Ron welcomed my arrival. how much i used to miss those hugs.

Fish & Chips for dinner on his STRICT RULES ROOM. $@#$#@%!#. cannot even walk pass the carpet with my boots on. being too lazy and him too tired after a whole day looking for me at the bus stop, we called it a day after dinner.

and i swear it was the hottest night in autumn. so hard to fall asleep..ZZZ

RISE and SHINE. wonderful morning in a lovely room. so comfortable. i was delighted when i was awake. because of daylight saving, i was paranoid and a tad of excitement cause kampung girl from Malaysia never knew whats daylight saving even after i google-d it. so now i know, i had one extra hour to sleep blah blah. forgive that pale lips and tired face because didn't sleep well last night @.@

i can't tell he's happy or otherwise of my visit that day but was kind enough to bring me around Birmingham for the afternoon. USING WHAT GOD GAVE US ALSO.

the pictures :
1. Bullring shopping mall. (PRIMARK and NEW LOOK are 10 times bigger than Oxford's)
2 & 3. Victoria Square. the place where he called it the tourists spot. because so many people with camera went there and take pictures.
4. i cant remember where this is, maybe its Victoria Square as well, cause thats the only thing i remember him saying.

ok i have to say sometimes u travel from one side to another using bus okay. not everywhere with WHAT GOD GAVE US, espeically in Birmingham right. mmmm not when your friend's house is far away from the city.

we had Malaysian for Brunch. because the Italian restaurant that he initially planned to bring me to was, well no reason, its just because he was too lazy to walk more. #%@#Q$@#%

well, sun are deceiving here in UK. Oxford, Brimingham, wherever.. because...if you see sun that shines like that..
yes, like that. from your room, you thought its gonna be a sunny day! warm, sunny.. nice to walk in..BUT, it can be extremely windy and cold too!

you see! girls eyyyy~ girls.... long hair! hair always lose to the wind. strong ones here in Birms.

i wasn't satisfy until we got a decent one,
like this. then only left for another spot. you know where he brought me to next?

hahaha! picture speaks it all aint it? my virgin casino time. lol.

and in GALA Casino, casino virgins get a free 10 POUNDS bet. and we bet it on BlackJack. well well, luck wasn't with us and we lost the free bet. went home right after. and then, we sleep again. excuse me! i didn't called a sleeping queen, nap queen whatever without a reason okay!

and thats my less than 24 hours trip in Birmingham. so short yet i had not felt like i missed out anything in Birmingham. ;) sometimes its not the place that matters isn't it?

and Ron, is a really old friend of mine. don't believe?
see. that was then. thats now.

ps:/ thanks for your hospitality, i am guilty of hijacking your time to do research but many thanks for the warm welcome and rushed goodbye.

till then.

i love Oxford most.

so posh!

2009-10-22T00:49:00.004+08:00

oh yes. i had a lovely weekend and it was so posh! lol.

did a little party on the Fridays and all the yadda yadda... Sunday morning. was lovely. received atext message from wonder Jeannie aka my new long-lost friend (long lost because i thought i should have knw her earlier! so we can crap even more and laugh even more!!! lol. wtf). i was invited to lunch with her and beloved Min Yuen, also another long-lost friend. haha. omg i met so many long-lostsss here.

we had a POSH lunch. we were so POSH. well the story goes like this actually...

i went all "POSH-y" because we had our expensive lunch in a local fish & chips diner which called itselfs POSH FISH!
it was the best afternoon i ever had since the day i landed foot on this piece of foreign land.

we happened to posed for the camera while waiting forour orders. because we were so POSH like that. haha.

POSH FISH was so awesome because they serve this awfully huge portion of hot fresh milk!

haha! SO POSH RIGHT?

and the awfully HUGE portion of Fish & Chip which Jeannie couldn't finish! we should've share la babe. and also also also also!!!! the very yummy baked beans. tell you a secret! i hated baked beans all my life UNTIL this POSH afternoon. it was awesome!

well, ok, here's the thing. ever since i came here, for i don't know what reasons, i became a humoungous eater. i eat basically alot more than what i had back home, and these meals are so fattening and most importantly, THEY ARE SO YUMMY, and POSH also.

well, shopping in Iceland awhile for the marvelous yummylicious yumms yumms. i show u later! and of course, they were walking with me, SO, i want to take some pictures of us them we you her whoever.
mmm. Min Yuen said we looked so good together. wtf we looked so POSH right? HAHAHAH

OH and then!!!!! Jeannie showed me something VERY extraordinarily POSH! in Headington..
THIS! hahahahaha!!! a shark strove directly into a house from some rooftop! i reckon its a restaurant. but, why Oxford-ians think its so POSH like this is it?? ok lah its quite POSH. haha

ok heres the yummylicous yumms yumms i was talking about. Jeannie baked this for me onced and i was stucked!
the 1Pound-for-2pieces pizza! it was so awesome i tell you! Marvelous discovery here in Oxford. probably some other places as well but i am so un-posh in this sense cause i havent been anywhere else in UK yet. its so easy you just chuck it into the oven and bake for 20 minutes and YUMMSSSSS~~

oh well, i have another POSH habit here. remember my sexy leopard print diary?

yesh! i finally drew something in it. haha. so POSH. because i love plans! plans! plans! and plans!

and this is my upcoming plan!

yays. cheers.

bye

i am unexplainably ecstatic

2009-10-18T09:22:00.007+08:00

"well done" he said. i am facinated by the passion these people had, and also their talented, face. anyways it was a very productive day i must say. apart from getting down at the very wrong station and literally used 'what god gave me' to walk to the said hall for the trials. i had found my destination..

following closely to the map online and the email the bus company sent me as to direct me to this secluded school.

hence this tired face, due to the drinking session last night -.-

i finally found this school. where the hall is at.

yes. thats how pale and stiff i looked like today. know why? it was freezing cold and extra windy as i had to walk. but there is excitement in my face as per see. because it was quite amazing. this place where i am at. a boarding primary school and it looks fantastic.

well i didnt managed to take a picture of the hall, because....there are people around!!!! how to be vain in front of alot of trained dancers? especially they are all ang mohs laa!

after about 4 hours of continuosly dancing Waltz, Quickstep, Cha Cha & Jive, it had finally came to an end, results! (wth so scary wasnt expecting this i tell you. 200 girls were there and most of them were ballet dancers. 50 male population that apply for the trials as well and i was amazed by the amount of guys that actually turn out)

"number 401 please step forward. grab a partner, and here we go...*musics...* "

i gulped my saliva and carry on that rocky head and frozen feet and did my thing in that hall that is so slippery. anyways, my partner is from hong kong and he's cute so i was mistake free! haha

and yes. i was then selected into the team. and then i swep my feet off the dance floor with the letter received on my hand, and literally ran out from the school because i was freezing cold! with dried sweat and empty stomach. 6.30pm marked. i was a hungry and happy women waiting for a bus in the middle of an empty street.

the end *smiiillleeee*

dream a little dream

2009-10-13T21:10:00.003+08:00

some dreams are untouchable. some are even unreachable. within these windows and old english brick buildings, i claimed no success in life here in a foreign country. i am lost, scared, sucked in, and most importantly i got deemed off. ever since i step foot in this piece of totally strange land, i got striked off on my feet. i got so coward and such pathetic where i don't speak and i don't act as i always do anymore.

and as usual i surf for nothing, for something, online almost every single day. coincidencely or by fate i don't know, i happened to come accross a post online about Ballroom Latin Dancing in Oxford University. i got invited as i swarn my feet towards the try out just yesterday..

i'm officially a member now *smile

this is said to be quite an impressive dance club and i am also invited by one of the coach to their team trials this Saturday. so, mom, should i? yes i should. thanks!

looks like 'she', has a chance to come out and perform its' duty for me. once more? ;) all the best, to me.

and 'her' name is, Valens.

parts of it that worth remembering

2009-10-11T22:12:00.007+08:00

we all know that alcohol are cheap here in UK. and now here i am. i am not an alcoholic but i do drink. and as a girl who came all the way from the other side of the globe, who loves purple dresses, and happened to own one, i'd always say YES to party, in my purple dress. and yes, we hit 2 clubs in a week. Que Pasa the latin club, and RUSH the ultimate Oxford Brookes Student Union club. its in our campus, so its healthy and pure 'educationl' as Alif said.

alright. so here's the confession. there was a Neon UV Rave few days before and we all played dress up intended to go. sadly, queue was too freaking long and my pals weren't interested in waiting. and look how long they took to decide where to go..
suggestions. suggestions. suggestions!!! such an interesting arguements they had there at the bus stop. haha. also, despite the fact that it was quite cold and william has a pink neon coloured legging around his neck. because we wanted to go to NEON rave and he thought he was NEON enough like that. lol

Que Pasa was great. latin jukebox as i favoured. very nice. very good night. but too little that i drank and wasn't too into dancing then. sad.

and last night, just less than 24 hours before now, we went Rush. we had tickets and we were early. we were in front of the queue. how great.

this, ladies and gentlemen, is RUSH. i mean its dancefloor. haha. its jam packed omgness and ang moh doesnt dance well. cheh! MICHAEL IS BETTER!!! DAVID IS BETTER LA! hahahhahahha! and nope, Michael and David, they weren't dancing ballroom. ;)

and this is what happens when we had 5 shots tequilla before, 1 disgusting shot, 2 pints of beer and a pint of vodka+redbull. still sober. mmm. im impressed with my alcohol tolerance now. very very well Cindy Wong. Elaine said she loves me that night and called me her bitch. hmm, how nice of her. wtf

we all got hungry after clubbing and drinking don't we? we all go mamak after drinking/clubbing don't we? yeah. and here in Oxford, NO MAMAK. NO MAGGI GORENG. NO TEH TARIK PANAS. only some kebab stores by the road in the city centre, and? hehe, only if you have super nice friends...
like this one. the name is Archut and he's from France. he voluntered to make burgers for us as supper.
double cheese burger. home-made. so much love and passion. our hungry and not sober souls are waiting to munch on those yummies. thanks to Archut and now Elaine and i always make burgers in our own kitchens. cheers.

i don't really love that night afterall. nothing there i wish i would recall. but those burgers and funny jokes, are what worth remembering.
we had great time shopping in Boots pharmacy too.

ps* we were both in love with bronzers. i rather be dark.

cheers. the end